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fandomsecrets2013-03-08 07:13 pm
case) wrote in fandomsecrets2013-03-08 07:13 pm
[ SECRET POST #2257 ]
⌈ Secret Post #2257 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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[Jessica Alba]
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[porn... sort of. illustrated]
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[ ----- SPOILERY SECRETS AHEAD ----- ]
13. [SPOILERS for A Song of Ice and Fire]
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14. [SPOILERS for Supernatural]
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15. [SPOILERS for Brave, Wreck-It Ralph]
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16. [SPOILERS for Persona 3]
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17. [WARNING for suicide, self harm]
[My Mad Fat Diary]
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[Far Cry 3]
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19. [WARNING for self harm and sexual abuse]
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Notes:
Secrets Left to Post: 00 pages, 000 secrets from Secret Submission Post #322.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ], [ 1 - ships it ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.
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(Anonymous) 2013-03-09 05:21 am (UTC)(link)Background info: I'm shy and somewhat socially awkward, and I don't have many friends.
A few months back, I activated my OK Cupid profile again after a breakup from a pretty long relationship. I told myself (and said on my userpage) I was just looking for new friends - not sex, no romance.
This guy sent me a message, and I decided to reply. He seemed nice, and we exchanged a few messages. I found myself somewhat attracted to him - which seemed odd, considering I didn't really know him at all - and started thinking meeting up with him might be nice.
Then Life Happened in a pretty massive way - it seemed like I'd have to look for new housing AND a new job suddenly, I was still grieving after the breakup and possibly depressed, a couple of other things - and I just never got around to replying to him. I felt really bad about it, but I figured it might be for the best anyway. It really seemed kind of weird that I felt so attracted to him - and somewhat suspicious, since (1) he kinda reminds me of my ex in a good way, and (2) he hits quite a few of my IRL kinks. Holy fetishization, Batman!
But I never quite stopped thinking about him. And it turned out we had acquaintances in common. Maybe we could be pretty good friends, after all? But I still put off writing to him, because I felt ashamed I hadn't written sooner. What if he didn't want to hear from me?
Anyway, a week ago or so I was finally able to make myself try to write to him again. Except, turns out his user account no longer exists.
The only things I knew about him were the info on his page, including an apparently-very-generic username, possibly based on a probably-very-common (in Japan) first name that might or might not belong to him, and in which research department he worked at the university in my town. Feeling like a very creepy person, I checked the personnel page of the research department in question. Nope, his name wasn't there any more (I had checked once before, just to see if the person he claimed to be existed. Well ... mostly that). Meaning he's probably left the country. Most likely I'll never find out what happened, or what kind of person he would have turned out to be if we'd got to know each other.
God, I regret not writing back.
SO SORRY! PLEASE DO NOT REPLY!
(Anonymous) 2013-03-09 05:24 am (UTC)(link)*embarrassed*
Re: SO SORRY! PLEASE DO NOT REPLY!
(Anonymous) 2013-03-09 05:35 am (UTC)(link)Wait, so apparently the post DID show up in the right place? *facepalm* You know what? Never mind me. I'm going to bed. No idea why I didn't do that hours ago.
Re: SO SORRY! PLEASE DO NOT REPLY!
(Anonymous) 2013-03-09 06:16 am (UTC)(link)you know, at first I thought this was going to lead up to a dramatic reveal where the internet guy turned to be your ex
dun dun DUN
anyway, this is probably not what you want to hear, but let it go
regretting past opportunities solves nothing, and only blinds you to what you have now
Re: SO SORRY! PLEASE DO NOT REPLY!
(Anonymous) 2013-03-11 10:32 am (UTC)(link)(Hee. Your "dramatic reveal" version was more fun, especially as I keep imagining it as Ex turning out to be SUDDENLY JAPANESE (we're from northern Europe).)