Of all days, today was the day my department manager picked to start doing observations and critiquing how I interact with customers and upsell products and the store credit card. Normally, I would've been fine (maybe a little upset, but nothing a break wouldn't have smoothed over), but because I'm sick and on my period (I'm sick!anon a thread below this), everything just came to a head and I broke down. I'm still scared they're gonna fire me even though the HR manager was worried I was gonna quit (which I'm not because I desperately need this job), she's said that they try not to fire people, and a department coworker mentioned that I'm pretty much the only summer help they're gonna get. So I know logically that I'm pretty safe, but I just can't stop being upset and feeling like the Worst Employee Ever. I like my department, but I'm pretty sure I upsold myself a little too much during the interview and I think they're expecting me to know more than I do. I should've just said that I know jack shit because then at least they would've known they were going to be starting from scratch with me. Uhg.

I can't even be proud of learning how to do a phone order two days ago because I'm not in Customer Service and it will hardly apply to me and I'll likely forget how to do the damn thing the next time somebody else needs it.