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fandomsecrets2013-06-24 07:01 pm
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[ SECRET POST #2365 ]
⌈ Secret Post #2365 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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[Community/Mad Men]
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[Antoine Becks]
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[Arrested Development]
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[Naruto]
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[Miyavi]
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[Breaking Bad]
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[Nardwuar the Human Serviette]
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[Spartacus]
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[Bridal Mask]
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[Malcolm In The Middle/Breaking Bad]
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[Pillars of the Earth]
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[The Kills]
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[Sarah and Brendon Urie]
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[Hannibal]
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[Hannibal]
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[Ashlee Simpson]
Notes:
Secrets Left to Post: 04 pages, 078 secrets from Secret Submission Post #337.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
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Look, here's the thing
Generally, you don't "tough out" chemical depression. You might learn to live with it, but when you have an alternative life where everything sucks a whole lot less, it doesn't lessen you to take that option. The fact that some can't understand that shouldn't mean you should by into it just cause more people said it.
You need to remember two key things here: First, these medications ARE LONG TERM. They take a long time to build up, they take a long time to get out of your system. So when you are feeling great, sure, if you miss a pill once or twice, that probably will be fine. The problem is thinking that means you are suddenly okay.
We don't tend to think long term about things, as humans. We tend to work well with every action having an immediate or at least imminent reaction. So it's easy to think that in that week you stop taking the meds you are doing find and will be doing fine.
But you are seeing now that when the meds do get out of your system 6-8 weeks later... well.
If you are sure you should be off the meds, DO NOT DO IT ON YOUR OWN. Talk about a slow tapering process. Not just your own "half strength then nothing". And remember IT WILL BE A WHILE BEFORE YOU SEE THE FULL EFFECTS OF THE CHANGE. Same for going back on the meds.
But know your body can sometimes react hard to. you changed the chemical composition in your brain. Sometimes your body ends up overbalancing this sort of thing, and making the thing you were taking the meds to stop worse then ever. There are really, really important reasons not to do this sort of thing on your own, or with the advice of people that have no medical knowledge themselves. It's true that say, optimizing your nutrition to your body can have positive effects, but who needs what tends to differ from person to person as much as medications do so I wouldn't rely on anything holistic as a miracle cure (though it doesn't sound like you are taking your mom's advice seriously, just thought I'd say that).
You fucked up. Not letting you off there. I'm not the gentle guy. I speak from a personal place though, I've fucked up with meds before (i'm off them now, but that took a lonngggg time and I did it carefully and slowly the last time around). So I know something about all of this.
The key to remember though, is what is and isn't your fault. Quitting your meds like a dope? Your fault. Needing the meds in the first place? Nothing to feel bad about.
What's done is done. You don't need to feel bad about this as much as you need to learn from this. If and when you do drop the meds, DROP THEM RIGHT.