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⌈ Secret Post #2380 ⌋

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Re: On gender, clothing, size and fitness.

[(Anonymous)]

When you can't find clothes at -Walmart-, you know you've hit rock bottom.

I've been there for, oh, six-ish years now.

Seriously, your post could have been written by me. Replace 250 with 350 and yep, that's me. The best part is going to the doctor and the scale doesn't go high enough and I have to step off with an embarrassed laugh while the nurse tries to hide her disgust.

When I was in high school, I wavered between 160 and 180 and thought I was a monster. I'd kill to get back there now.

I don't know what's wrong. I don't eat like a pig. I don't eat horrible stuff. Sure, I eat fast food maaaybe once or twice a week, but the rest of the time is home meals, yummy veggies, all the good shit. I stopped drinking sodas and drink unsweetened tea and water. And where's my weight OH YEAH right where it's been for the last six years. 347. Thanks a fucking lot, body. It's pretty hard to convince yourself that giving up and binging on cake isn't worth it.

I hate clothes shopping. I put it off as absolutely long as I can because it usually ends in me crying and feeling like I'm sub-human. Seriously, every other skinny woman gets four sections of the store and I get a half of one that's half-full of crap that's just bigger versions of shit that looks ridiculous on -skinny- girls? I wear my clothes until they're shrunk too far (usually become too short to cover my gut comfortably) or go threadbare. I go through a pair of jeans maybe once every 3-4 months cause my fatass thighs rub a hole between my legs. I have to carefully wash my clothes or they shrink to where they're useless. One time I gathered up all my clothes and went to wash them, and the roommate put them in the dryer without me knowing or having the chance to warn him not to. I was in tears because I thought my entire wardrobe was ruined beyond repair. I managed to reclaim some of it but not all of it.

Anyway, I've found some luck shopping at Lane Bryant. I wear their jeans now because they last about 1.5 months longer than the usual Walmart brands, who don't seem to even carry my size anymore. I just hate how everything in even Lane Bryant is designed for "plump". Anyone can look good with plump. Someone make clothes that make me actually look and feel like a worthy human being instead of a sack of fatty flesh with gross lumps and stretched-out patterns everywhere.

Anyway, I hope you get yourself out of this pit, OP. Maybe you can toss down a rope when you get there, cause it's been a fucking long time since I saw the sun.