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Thank you for sharing your story. I'm glad someone in this thread can understand what it's like to have a problem that doesn't go away with a loving family or good friends or whatever else is out there that helps.

/hugs you. It's an ongoing struggle--you're absolutely right. People with depression or addictions or whatever don't just magically get better. And sometimes the fact that it's going to be a struggle forever is enough to make it worse...if that makes sense. "I'm always going to have really bad days mixed in with the "okay" and the "good" days." That's hard to deal with sometimes. But not everyone understands that.

Thanks for your reply. <3

ayrt

You're welcome. I'm just really horrified that the blaming in this thread. Yes, you do choose to take drugs the first time. But, I also chose to take a knife to myself the first time. The first time I actually tried slashing my writs (but failed) but at the same moment I found out cutting myself could give me relief.

But that first time, that was driven by sadness and desperation felt by a 13-year old girl. And on the outside, I came from a nice middle-class family who lived comfortably. I was the gifted, golden child of two older parents who went to one of the best schools in the area. When I was little everyone thought I'd grow up to be a doctor or whatever. Yes, my parents made mistakes, but not maliciously so, mostly just because they had no experience with mental illness, and because of denial, not malice. So on the outside, people could say I had it all, too.

I remember when I was like 19 (and trying to get my high school diploma, two years late) when there was this teacher who said my problems were "luxury problems" and I remember being so, so angry and hurt.

Yes, obviously, I'm not a starving child in Africa, but I was completely and utterly convinced that this woman didn't go through a fraction of what I did, and it was especially hurtful at a time where I was trying so hard to put my life back together. And so many people in this thread sound like that: so very judgmental of someone trying to get his life together. It's strange, too, because I'm only a little older than Cory, so our stories would have for a large part been simultaneous. I guess that makes it worse, because it makes me realize I'm still not out of the clear. And never will be.

That's what was bothering me, too. It was clear to me that most people in the thread either forget what it was like to be 13, or didn't struggle with the problems some 13-year-olds struggle with. All the love in the world won't keep you from doing sad things.

That teacher was an asshole and as a fellow (soon to be) educator (I'll be there when I hit 30!) I'm horrified that someone would say something like that. People joke about "first world problems" all the time, and sometimes I do too, "Man today is such a bad day, I'm so depressed...first world problems." But it's still sad. I'm only a few years younger than Cory so I felt like that's just so young for someone to be when life just STOPS. But in the end he was still a talented man.

Also, your post makes me also want to teach GED classes and stuff. I considered it before but I love adults and I would love to help adults get their high school diploma/GEDs even more than I'd love to teach high school or college-level stuff. ;_;

Please do! You could make such a difference.

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