[ SECRET POST #2418 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2418 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[LeeSaem of Nine Muses, Kota of Sunny Hill, Lime of Hello Venus and Minzy of 2NE1]


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20. [WARNING for sexual abuse]
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warning for sexual abuse

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warning for sexual abuse

[Picture is Ghirahim and Link from the videogame "The Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword". Ghirahim is a humanoid male with white hair parted on the side and covering half his face, pale skin, pointed ears, thin and kind of short and wearing a skin-tight white and gray suit. He is wearing a golden belt with a large red gem and a golden arm band. He is blocking Link's sword strike with a hand. Link is a young man with short dark blond hair wearing a green tunic and a green hat, along with a shield, fingerless brown gloves and wielding a sword. He is striking at Ghirahim on a large circular platform with the picture of a sun on it, somewhere in a large chamber.]

I was sexually abused. When I first encountered Ghirahim, it made me so uncomfortable that I had anxiety problems and quit playing for several days. I think I'm just projecting, but something about Ghirahim rubs me the wrong way and he comes off as really sexual. I recently realized I unconsciously formed a headcanon that whenever they crossed paths, he tried to sexually dominate Link to humiliate and torture him. I feel guilty for thinking such an awful thing about something that probably wasn't even meant to be sexual. Feeling this way made the game more personal, so it was intense to play through. Weird enough, it has actually helped me deal with the abuse I went through. I even grew to like Ghirahim as a character. This is all really contradictory since it's very triggering for me. I'm confused about the whole thing to be honest.

[(Anonymous)]

mental associations -- especially those brought on by traumatic events -- don't always have to make sense

I'm very glad you managed to turn this around into something positive. I don't know about your circumstances, but if seeking a psychologist is an option, they might help you continue making sense of your emotions and generally help you move forward

[(Anonymous)]

Your subconscious is probably trying to help you deal with this. Go you! :) If you can think and talk about it and feel a little better, you're coming a long way. Try to be patient with yourself and love yourself during the process.

If you have somebody to talk to that would be awesome, but I'm glad you felt safe enough to post here. :)

[(Anonymous)]

It sounds like you used the game subconsciously for catharsis. It's why a lot of people write fic, too. Don't feel bad. I'm glad it helped you! I agree with the above poster that talking to a therapist or someone may help too, but don't ever beat yourself up for it. You can't help the associations your brain makes.