I can't be around her because it instantly depresses me. She's gorgeous, gets along with everyone, has a million and one friends, is professionally successful and is great at art. My nose is huge and I look like a gremlin when I smile, I have very few friends, it's hard for me to meet new people, and my art is sub-par.
But I know that's not true! I know I have value, and I'm good in a lot of other things, and I do have friends, and they care about me. I know these things consciously, but whenever I'm faced with her accomplishments, I feel like a loser, like the terrible sequel to a great movie, like the shitty second book of the series, I don't know. I need this to stop... It's destroying my relationship with her...
I NEED TO STOP COMPARING MYSELF TO MY SISTER
I can't be around her because it instantly depresses me. She's gorgeous, gets along with everyone, has a million and one friends, is professionally successful and is great at art. My nose is huge and I look like a gremlin when I smile, I have very few friends, it's hard for me to meet new people, and my art is sub-par.
But I know that's not true! I know I have value, and I'm good in a lot of other things, and I do have friends, and they care about me. I know these things consciously, but whenever I'm faced with her accomplishments, I feel like a loser, like the terrible sequel to a great movie, like the shitty second book of the series, I don't know. I need this to stop... It's destroying my relationship with her...