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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2013-09-10 06:52 pm

[ SECRET POST #2443 ]


⌈ Secret Post #2443 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Sailor Moon]


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[Taken]


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04.
[Hetalia]


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[John and Edward Grimes/Jedward]


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[Zoolander]


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[X-Files]


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[Amanda Palmer and Paula Deen]


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[Once Upon a Time]


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[Corporal Rivaille from Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan]


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Notes:

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Re: Diagnosis: fucked up

(Anonymous) 2013-09-11 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
OP

Thank you for being kind, this kind of made me misty eyed. Honestly, health as a holistic concept didn't exist for me until recently, and the idea that self worth doesn't come from health, that it's something everybody should have and be, is almost... sweet?

You're right that it's bad management, at least for this culture that I'm living in. And it does suck to be incapacitated; I've been in situations for the past 5 years where I probably should have been incapacitated for my own good, but my cultural teachings told me to fucking get up and get on with it, instead of seeking help.

I mean, some of this is due to the more recent, young adult (19-20) experience I had, as well. I lost about 15 lbs in two weeks one summer, and another 10 the following month, with my whole family watching. I went from 125 to 100 lbs in 2 months. They could see how sick I was, I couldn't eat, I slept constantly when I wasn't working. Like, I would sleep on the floor in between chores. But I survived, being sick didn't slow people down, and they didn't take me to the doctor.

So until I ended up in the emergency room last year from losing consciousness and seizing, that was pretty much how I treated getting sick. Just keep going.

Objectively, all of this sounds so fucked up, oh my jesus.