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Aversion to showering

[(Anonymous)]

Help me, f!s. >.< Somehow in the past few months I've developed this weird aversion to showering (and baths but I've always hated baths). I've been going up to two and a half weeks without showering because every time I think about doing it, it just seems like soooo much effort and it's easy to come up with excuses not to - it's too late, too early, my hair dries so slow, I don't want to shave but I'll feel guilty if I shower and then don't... ugh. I'm fortunate in that I sweat very little (and use deodorant loads) and have very pale hair, so at least it's not super noticeable I'm not showering, but after a while I start to feel incredibly grosses out, which just leads to not showering because I don't feel clean even after showering. Wtf.

Don't really think it's depression related because I've actually been doing really well on that front for almost a year. I am just baffled and at a loss how to motivate myself to shower when I can't even really use 'I smell' as a prod.

Re: Aversion to showering

[(Anonymous)]

I was gonna say it was depression related and it might still be, if you have a history. In my experience this has been the first sign that things are about to start spiraling downward and I have to force myself to take care of it before it does.

Re: Aversion to showering

[(Anonymous)]

I'd still say it might be depression related. A lack of motivation and thinking things like showering is too much effort are signs of depression.

I don't have any tips other than you've just got to tell yourself to get in and do it.

I have an aversion to showering pretty much for the same reasons you state. But mine is also depression related. Nothing to it, you've just got to get yourself in the shower and do it.

Re: Aversion to showering

[lynx]

This started happening to me on 2009, and it WAS depression related. (Fortunately I'm way way better now, and I usually shower one day, skip the next, and then shower at the third day again - thus restarting the cycle. I do it that way to save water. But there are still some days in which I have no motivation to get dressed, even less to shower. They usually are the days I feel at my lowest, so I at least know the cause.)

I suggest you talk to your therapist about it, if you have one.

Re: Aversion to showering

[anonymouslyyours]

Agreeing with everyone else. Putting off showering, even when literally everything else is seemingly perfect and I feel great, has always been the first sign of another downcycle in my depression. Your mention of feeling gross even after showering is another warning sign.

I suggest revisiting whatever it was that helped you get on a positive track a year ago or talking to your doctor/therapist.

Re: Aversion to showering

[(Anonymous)]

Try being proud of yourself or giving yourself a reward when you do shower. Like the other commenter I suffer from depression too, and while I don't stop showering often (it's one of the few things I always feel a need to do) I do have problems getting small tasks done, and as silly as it sounds sometimes it can help to feel proud of yourself for getting something accomplished.

And I agree with the other comments that depression manifests in different ways, sometimes I'm not sad or angry but just apathetic and lazy so you may just not see the signs.

Re: Aversion to showering

[(Anonymous)]

it might be helpful to shower and tie back your hair/shower cap and just wash your body, so it's just a quick five minute in-and-out thing.