[ SECRET POST #2605 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2605 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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02.
[Slenderman]


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03.
[Saints Row 3]


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04.
[Doctor Who]


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05.
[Welcome to Night Vale, My Mad Fat Diary]


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06.
[The Middle]


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07.
[Steven Universe]


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08.
[Kyuhyun and Seohyun]


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09.
[Disney]


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10.
[Teen Wolf]


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11.
[Thor: Dark World]


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12.
[The Avengers/Clark Gregg]


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13.
[Teen Wolf]


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14.
[Hannibal]


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15.
[Fate/Stay Night]















Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 036 secrets from Secret Submission Post #372.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Re: Non-fandom confessions gooooo

[nyxelestia]

A lot of my older* friends and even those my age have graduated from my school, recently and over the last few semesters, and I have one more semester before I leave my community college and transfer to a full university.

I tell people I miss them - which I do - but what I really miss is having people who challenge me and cut down on my ego. I've hit my school's equivalent of upper-division classes, and I'm usually the smart one, and in my social group there are few people who intellectually challenge me left. And while I normally tend to make light my arrogance (which is there, I fully admit), it was always easy to keep in check with the presence of people who were doing much better in life than me. Now...most of my friends are those who generally are not doing nearly so well, and I don't want to think of myself as somehow "better" than them, but I do. I see people "falling behind", i.e. screwing up or throwing away job opportunities beyond belief, taking years on academic paths that should be taking months (and without a good reason like job, disability, etc.), things like that. I see this and I start to think of myself as being better than them, and I hate when my thought processes head down that way. I thought I got past this ego trip problem years ago.

It doesn't help that people keep praising me because of the whole "I'm a young ([South] Asian-American) woman with a busy schedule and high grades, therefore I must have severe anxiety, stress, or self-esteem" stereotype. Hell, my boyfriend and I have hit the point where we almost feel guilty about having a stable relationship when every other relationship in our social groups are wrought with ridiculous amount of turmoil.

tl;dr - I'm getting arrogant and I hate it but I'm not sure how to make it stop now that my usual methods of keeping my ego in check are gone



* = not necessarily older in age, just ahead of me in life, academics, maturity, etc.