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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2014-03-08 03:40 pm

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Re: No but... OT aside.....

(Anonymous) 2014-03-09 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
It's very frustrating - and i know about 1000 times more for you - that anything that smacks of 'mental disorder' makes people act like dumbasses.

All of that, yes. If I could figure out how to frame things in a socially acceptable way, things might be easier, but, well, if I could figure out framing things socially to start with, I wouldn't have these problems at all, would I? Heh.

(very smart, but can't write well, so timed tests are bad for her since she physically simply cannot write quickly enough. But ask the same questions aloud, including math stuff, and she's fine.)

I lucked out academically because my language and spatial skill sets are very good. Words have been probably the longest-standing of my obsessions (etymology is such a thing), and I'm physically capable of writing and typing really well. Although, spoken language is a bit odd with me. I don't take accents well? I think I just tend to pronounce things the way I think they should be pronounced, rather than the way they actually are pronounced around me. Most of my language I learned by reading rather than hearing, so speaking can be a bit hit-and-miss with me.

The downside to the spatial awareness thing is that tactile and spatial sensations are two of the most likely things to catch me in a sensory fugue (also visual - light does funny things to me sometimes). I get caught up in sensations to the point of exclusion, which can be bad. (Aural sensations, on the other hand, are often just painful - too much noise is bad, and spatial/tactile can go overboard too - crowds tend to kill me from a combo of those and social anxiety).

And yes, floors can be gross. I don't sit on the gross ones, which for me primarily means sticky. I hate stickiness, in anything. Dust is fine, though.

I'm glad there are perks, because having to wonder if walking across the room and sitting down is going to weird people out sounds exhausting.

Some of it is an exercise in deliberately not caring? A case of prioritising. I try to figure out and avoid doing anything that's indecent or makes people physically uncomfortable or unsafe, but put less priority on things that'll just make them think I'm weird, because I've basically been the weird kid/weird girl all my life and after a while I just stopped caring overmuch?

But there are perks. Some of the sensory stuff, while it's got downsides in being overwhelming, is almost worth it just for the way the world feels just before you get to that point. The spatial thing, especially. I have moments where it's like I can physically feel the motion of the world, where it's like this big empty moving thing around me. And light. Sometimes the world looks so crystal clear for a while, physically speaking. It's sometimes amazing.

I also tend to think that being more logical than social occasionally helps in crisis situations. But, um. I would think that, wouldn't I? Heh.
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Re: No but... OT aside.....

[personal profile] nyxelestia 2014-03-09 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
Some of the sensory stuff, while it's got downsides in being overwhelming, is almost worth it just for the way the world feels just before you get to that point. The spatial thing, especially. I have moments where it's like I can physically feel the motion of the world, where it's like this big empty moving thing around me. And light. Sometimes the world looks so crystal clear for a while, physically speaking. It's sometimes amazing.I

It really sounds like it! :D This is probably going to sound very bad, but sometimes I wish I had Asperger's just so I could get those kinds of perks. Instead, I basically can't touch canvas or anything 'too rough' and can't file my nails if my life depended on it - I don't get fun stuff like that. :|

Logic definitely trumps sociability in times of crisis, and many other times as well. Cracked recently ran a '5 Brain Disorders That Were Actually Evolutionary Advantages' article, and this was basically how Asperger's was an advantage - in a time of foraging, hunter-gathering, etc., being able to provide for and protect someone (which autism helped with back then) tended to make up for not having social skill, and your offspring would be more likely to survive than the next person's over, who is very social but may not be as good at the providing and protecting bits. :P
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Re: No but... OT aside.....

[personal profile] tabaqui 2014-03-09 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, i'm familiar with that - I thought the name 'Penelope' was pronounced 'Penne - lope'. I'd never heard it out loud! Same with a lot of words that i'd never heard spoken.

I'm kinda...pikcy? To me, unless it's my very own house, most floors are gross. I kinda...don't trust other people's cleaning skills. (Usually.)

Heee. Hey, whatever gets you through you day. And really - logical thinking in a crisis is good. Much better than abject panic.