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⌈ Secret Post #2628 ⌋

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07. [SPOILERS for Sherlock]

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08. [SPOILERS for The Wayfarer Redemption series/Sinner]
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09. [WARNING for suicide]

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11. [WARNING for rape/abuse/etc (unmarked by OP, but I'd assume it applies)]

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12. [WARNING for rape]

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13. [WARNING for eating disorders]

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Your life. Dying of exposure or say, rationalizing that you are already off the grid and presumed dead, so why not just...

In that case I'm really not that much worse off, am I?

Well, you wouldn't have the internet, for one. Which seems to still be important to you because you are here seeing your secret all this time after you posted it.

That's not the reason I'm still around, though. Like I said upthread, I'd be just as much if not more of an inconvenience dead than alive. Once I find a way that won't leave a legal/financial mess to clean up or a body to get rid of, I'm done.

And I maintain your mental state is most definitely proof you should not be homeless and off the grid.

Also, no such thing as a messless death. perhaps time travel.

Ok, dude: sorry about the jokes. I tend to assume everything serious related to Frozen is a troll because it's fricking Frozen and it's everywhere now. I'm honestly sorry if I've hurt you.

That being said--you said you were worried about making people upset finding your body. Do you think running off and dying homeless would make them feel better? If anything, it might make them feel worse! They might assume something awful happened to you, or that you ran specifically from them.

The best way to solve this is to try to get better. Just try, whatever that means for you. And "better" isn't dead.

I'm not worried about them being upset finding my body as much as...annoyed that they have to get rid of it because of pesky public health regulations. They would only care about the legal/financial end of things. I've been told to my face more than once that I'd do everyone a favor if I didn't exist. So if I just up and disappeared one day, they'd probably go out drinking and celebrate. And then be annoyed at just how much of a pain in the ass it is to settle a dead person's affairs.

I guarantee people care more about you than you think, if only because you seem to think they view you as an object.

I've been told to my face more than once that I'd do everyone a favor if I didn't exist.

By everyone you know? And you think this is sincere, and not just said in anger?

Maybe not by everyone, but when it comes from the person who is responsible for me existing, it tends to carry more weight. If it's something just said in anger, then I must make them angry an awful lot (which is just more evidence everyone would be better off without me).

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It's evidence that the person responsible for you existing is being really shitty to you right now. It might be evidence that they are frustrated with their own life and taking it out on you. It might be evidence that they're frustrated and angry with you. Some people are really shitty to their children, for a million different reasons. Some people get angry a lot, for as many reasons. I don't know their situation, and I don't know yours.

It is not evidence that you should die, or that it would be better in general for you to die. It's not even evidence that this person would actually be better off if that were the case -- because as other people have said, people say awful shit like that all the time without thinking.

It is not evidence that you would be better off without you.

I know that sounds probably stupid and glib. I know from experience that anything anyone says to try to make me live when I don't think I want to live sounds like bullshit. I'm saying it anyway, because it's also true.

Your life is important because it's yours. I don't know your situation, so I can't tell you what to do for your own sake. But you do not owe anyone else your nonexistence, ever.

Parents, even good parents, can be really fucking terrible at times and are not the end all in self worth.

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