[ SECRET POST #2664 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2664 ⌋

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AYRT

[(Anonymous)]

*nod*

I tend to have urges to punish myself. The hardest thing for me is feeling like i'm being a drain on my parents and ruining their life. They're always reminding me that they love me but....from where I'm standing I just can't help feeling like a huge waste at times.

and it feels worse when I mess up and fight with them. Like I know that fights are always going to happen but...I just feel like everyone may push them closer to this nightmare in my head where they just...can't stand me anymore. Part of me is afraid of it and some demented part of me just wants to get it over with.

I'm always afraid of hurting people who help me. and saying the wrong thing and being ungrateful. I apologize a lot in case I say the wrong thing. and in some ways I feel like I cling to them in an almost childish way. I have two stuffed animals that I got from both of my parents that I love I sleep with and I would be horribly heartbroken if something happened to them. because it's a way of holding on to them.

I actually want my parents to love me I really do...just sometimes when I have a breakdown/anxiety fit I just feel like everyone should get it over with and hate me. But most of the time that's what I'm afraid of but worry is inevitable. When I was younger (and my OCD anxiety was at a peak) I had a horrible fear that if I said certain words everyone including my parents would hate me.

so, this kind of thing has been a fear of mine forever. It must be an anxiety thing.

*will take hugs*

SA

[(Anonymous)]

I'm just horribly sorry I sound mopey and whiny.

Re: AYRT

[diet_poison]

It might help to remember that the best way you can show your appreciation to your parents for all they've done, and the best way to prove that their love and help is worth it, isn't to tell them in words or be self-deprecating - it's to be the best person you can be, find real happiness, and make a positive impact. :) And that might take time, but you can do it!