[ SECRET POST #2728 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2728 ⌋

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Comments

Re: I wish my moods would stay put.

[quirkytizzy]

Are you in an environment where chaos is the way things work? In a lot of situations, fluctuating emotions is safer than emotions that stay put, because if they stay put, that means being weighed down with them. And if you're in a situation where sitting still (emotionally) is seen as being a good target, well.....the brain will do whatever it can to make sure that you DON'T SIT STILL.

There's also a bit - you said that it won't count in some people's opinions. Is this maybe part of it? That you don't feel safe or like you have permission to feel some of these triggering things, so your brain shoves it onto the merry go round until the next time it whirls around?

Re: I wish my moods would stay put.

[(Anonymous)]

That could be it. I was always yelled at as a kid for expressing emotion, and as a teenager I always lost all my friends because I was a drama queen. I tried to suppress my feelings all my life. Maybe I made it halfway and couldn't go on.

Re: I wish my moods would stay put.

[quirkytizzy]

The mind is a pretty amazing thing in what it will do (without our permission, even) in order to survive. The problem becomes when that survival skill is no longer needed. The brain doesn't want to let it go.

There was another commenter who suggested professional help. Are you able to seek that? Secure an intake at a low income clinic, perhaps?

I have sorta the same problem as you do. Too many feels. Too strong feels. I have a diagnosis and am in active treatment, but somedays - somedays it is still hard. But it's not as hard as it used to be. That's okay.