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I realized today that I've mostly stopped reading fics about the healthy relationships I ship and have pretty much exclusively been reading fics about really messed up relationships or really angsty/disturbing fics.

I've always liked those things, but I always read a fair mix of both types. It is kind of concerning me that I've stopped reading the healthy or happy stuff since I have no idea why.

Anyone else ever had this problem?

I have noticed that I gravitate towards ships where one character shows great dislike/hatred for the other character and their related fic. I guess that can be problematic in certain situations (Sasusaku...but now it's canon, so I don't mind that much anymore LOL)

Not really...

Though, I never claimed my tastes to be healthy. I'm just not all that bothered by it, and it doesn't seem to carry over into real life so much, so...

No, I don't think it carries over into real life. It mostly just something I noticed. That I've always liked really messed up ships, but I've also liked healthy ones. And I usually read a good mix of gen stuff and romantic stuff and creepy stuff. And now I'm just reading stuff that has at least a touch of the creepy. And I'm not sure if there is a reason for it or not.

The funny thing is how people actually point out I always end up with "the good guys" in real life. Which is true. I always joke that that must make me the "bad girl" they're infatuated with, only it's not so much a joke, as relatively it's not far from the truth.

So anyway, I think I tend to go for more flawed people and ships in fiction as a sort of compensation for real life, to satisfy those parts of myself, without having to act them out with real-life drama.

Edited 2015-01-23 04:13 (UTC)

I'm more disturbed by my writing preferences than my reading preferences.

Sort of.

I've realized that, when shipping canon characters, or at least reading fics with canon characters, I am enjoying (more than I should) the rare-pairs--particularly enemies, or the very good incorruptible character with the one void of any moral compass. I enjoy reading the fics where they build a relationship, but I very much enjoy random smutty hookups they have, in which they both feel some kind of way because they were never supposed to give into such types of urges with THAT character, or feel some bizarre pride at the fact that they broke the other character.

I suppose it's just an interesting dynamic? It certainly gets me excited (not sexually) but it's just so interesting to see!

Nah. Just because I read a mix of stuff. Some of the most angsty stuff ever but then the fluffiest fluff to ever fluff.

This is usually me. except now it is all angst, darkness, or smutty scenes that are inherently creepy even if not explicitly just because of the particular relationship depicted.

Yeah, sometimes. I have a few pairings like that, mainly Domyouji/Makino from Hana Yori Dango. It's a manga/anime/story I loved for years, but I've realized how fucked up the pairing is but still can't quit it.

It's the kind of pairing I've complained about in other series, so it makes me a bit of a hypocrite as well.

Yeah, I think I'm going to submit a secret about it, actually.

But tl;dr, in all of the things that I really ship, at least one side (preferably both) believed or expected that they'd never really be in a romantic relationship. And it makes me feel sad.

I have a weakness for trashy fantasy novels with covers of scantily-clad women being protected by half-naked glowering men. I also enjoy the occasional shameless bodice-ripper...every time I'm like "This is SO MUCH FUN but I want no man of my acquaintance to ever read the like!"

Nope, makes it easier to recognize what I'll like in a new ship, what will be the most interesting to be fic wise, etc.

I don't think it's concerning. Healthy and fluffy is all too easy to make boring, unfortunately. Meanwhile, unhealthy has this undercurrent of interesting things! You have mentalities you can pick apart and study under a microscope!

I've always figured that I like what I like, and I can still tell fiction from reality so there's nothing to be worried about.

I think most of us go through a period of reading or writing id-fic. Sometimes, for reasons that aren't always clear, we just crave something dark, something twisted, something that speaks to the demons that lurk under the surface. Every once in awhile I turn over a few rocks to see what might be living underneath, but once the need is sated, I go back to reading fluffy domestic stories that make me all weepy because they're the fanfic version of a Kodak or Kleenex commercial. Even in Snarry.

Enh, when I was dealing with some rough stuff, I read (and wrote) a fair amount of pretty fucked up stuff, and in the subtle, not-quite-aware-of-it way that bothers me more than when I get paid to write a woman having a monster fear kink and banging her nightmare.

When I'm in a better way, I don't do that so much. I see it as a canary in the coal mine sorta deal; it's a warning that I'm not doing so well.

My fantasy material is almost exclusively dubious consent or noncon, usually with group sex scenarios. I'm not really comfortable about that but you like what you like, I guess. That being said, I hate reading it in fiction and I don't like writing it either.

I have very close relationships with both my siblings, and sometimes I feel messed up for enjoying sibling incest fic. I'm not projecting, but sometimes I worry that I subconsciously am, or someone would think I was if they knew I read that kind of stuff.

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