[ SECRET POST #3012 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3012 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Please no. :(

My partner suffers from depression, and we've had some seriously horrible things happen to us this year. Sometimes our relationship gets tense because of it, too. He's never said it, but I suspect he's felt suicidal, especially if we're arguing, because I know with life crashing down around us, our relationship feeling rocky is the last thing either of us wants -- but it happens, because stress does that to any couple, and depression makes you think things like "it's always going to be like this! Nobody loves me! She'll leave me if she knows how weak I am!" That said, the only thing I want for him is happiness. I'm not going to magically leave him or think less of him because he's depressed. I want him to get help (and he is now, so I hope nobody reading this is worrying about me, too).

He is a loving, gentle, compassionate person who I love deeply. I can handle his depression and the accompanying insecurities and bad days and tense moments because I know he puts in the work to do and feel better. He's going at the pace he has to, and I can deal with it because he's trying. And I know that part of the reason he's trying is because when he can't bring himself to do it for his own sake, he remembers he loves me and uses that to motivate him. it's hard for both of us, and I've got depression/anxiety too, so I know how it works. If he ever killed himself, I'd have compassion for him. I'd know why he did it and what put him in that place. I would try my hardest not to judge. But I'd be fucking devastated, and no amount of knowing what he went through could really stop me from fixating on the idea that the person I fought for and alongside abandoned me.

So I suspect your girlfriend can handle a lot, but if you're not getting help, you're not doing all you can. Open up to her about your problems. Don't say "I'd kill myself if you left," but you can still let her know that things are looking difficult and hopeless lately and that you've been thinking about it. Don't shock her with it, and don't sell her so short that you think you could fool her into believing it was an accident. Get help where you can, and don't keep her in the dark. It's ultimately your choice, and I hope you find some peace for yourself no matter what. But please first give yourself the chance to seek support and really think through how much you're willing to hurt the people you care about.