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fandomsecrets2015-04-12 03:20 pm
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Re: Advice for psychotic episodes?
(Anonymous) 2015-04-13 01:46 am (UTC)(link)As currently I wouldn't trust a single person to help me or see me like this, I'll take it under advisement, but I'm not sure if it's something my situation is capable of supporting, or something I am capable of setting up. Like, I'd sooner walk around a city totally paranoid and fucked up sooner than I would ask someone to help, because 3/4 of my paranoia is not trusting people. Even for something innocuous. Even people whom I'm intimately familiar with.
Like, my paranoia is specifically thinking people are watching or observing me for Purposes. What those Purposes are are not yet clear, but if I get away fast enough, and don't stay in one place long enough, they won't catch on. Even my friends and family can inadvertantly let slip information to people who have these Purposes. So I am very non-interactive during these episodes, and try my best to seem... normal? Even though in retrospect I absolutely seem a fucking crazypants.
But I think the physical toolkit, or other grounding mechanisms would be very helpful. At least in helping me not feel fearful, not sure in dispelling the paranoia. Though that ha had limited success in the past, after having some very vivid hallucinations I went to go snuggle a cat because I was so terrified I was crying, but I just had a purring cat and was still afraid.
And yeah, the reassessing has been helpful so far in identifying the paranoia, And it has helped me identify when I'm having paranoid thoughts, so that has helped, so I'll keep that in my back pocket.