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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2015-04-17 06:54 pm

[ SECRET POST #3026 ]


⌈ Secret Post #3026 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Time Team]


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(Transformers: Windblade)


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[Sesame Street]


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(Transformers: More than Meets the Eye)


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(Transformers: Robots in Disguise 2015)


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16. [ SPOILERS for Aldnoah.Zero ]



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17. [ SPOILERS for Classic Who ]



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18. [ SPOILERS for Inuyasha ]



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19. [ WARNING for abuse, suicide ]



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[personal profile] fscom 2015-04-17 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
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[personal profile] fscom 2015-04-17 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
TL;DR Made friend through fic and mental illness. Don't feel like friends anymore. Am probably shitty friend.

We bonded over a love of dark!fic, but since I started to get my depression under control, I haven't had the slightest interest. I don't need to read a bleak world anymore, now that my world doesn't look so bleak. Now that I can feel happy, I like characters getting to be happy, too. I feel like an entirely different person now.

You haven't been able to find an effective way to control your own problems yet, and still all you read is angst, and you and I have been slowly growing apart.

I don't want to be the friend who abandons a friend just because we are in different places with our mental health, but I feel like sad fic and self-hatred were the only things we had in common. I want to be there for you like we were always there for each other, but our conversations feel like nothing but being there for you these days, none of the underlying sense of friendship. Sometimes I wonder if you ever find the right cocktail of meds and therapy to get you through this, maybe then we'll turn to each other and find we have nothing to talk about at all.