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[Dead Poets Society]

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[Tobey Macguire]

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[Billy Connolly]

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(Marvel Cinematic Universe/Marvel's Agents of S.H.I.E.l.D.)

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[Love Live]

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[Life is Strange]

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(Hysterical Literature/Walt Whitman)

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What a thread to be made considering I have a negative college rant in me right now. Let's do this.

I want to drop out really bad. I keep having persistant nightmares about going back to classes, I haven't made any friends or connections, and my work has just been dropping in quality. I failed a class for the first time last semester, and barely passed my others. I know its probably mostly the depression+anxiety combo talking, but I don't want to go back at all. My family won't support me if I do drop out though, so I'm stuck. I can't even take a break like I know some people do, cause I'm only able to go to school because of scholarships I will lose if I do. I'm stuck.

*Hugs*

Can you go part time? I did, and seriously, it saved my sanity.

Not really, most of my scholarships are dependent on me being full-time. If my grades continue dropping though I'll lose them anyway so like?? I'm fucked any which way, basically.

Damn, I hate how scholarships work.

Sorry, I know that doesn't help you much.

I think people are going to swoop in here and tell you to take a break and take care of yourself for a semester, but there are very good odds that if you did that you wouldn't actually come back. You could try taking a reduced course load or something like that, but do not drop out and do not leave. People who leave have a very high chance of not coming back.

Having a schedule helps with depression and anxiety, trust me as someone who's suffered from variations on both. Class, meetings, etc give you a reason to get up in the morning when sadness and stress wants you in bed until 1pm. This is what might happen to you if you stay home. It's what happened to me for a period when coursework stopped.

Have you been to the counseling center/equivalent?

Edited 2015-06-11 00:57 (UTC)

My anxiety is largely of the social subset, so the structure of classes doesn't really help me when I dread going to them cause of that aspect. Especially when I just end up going back to my apartment after them, cause, as you can see why, no friends. (I worked from home last term, so it was literally just classes and home.) And I know if I were to take a break I wouldn't come back, I literally wouldn't be able to afford to, I said that.

I took a reduced course load last semester (still full time, but down from 15 to 12 hours) but it didn't help, things just got worse. The counseling center was not helpful when I went so I haven't returned.

It doesn't help that I am getting a useless major and have lost al my ambitions in life. I literally don't see the point of me continuing my education, besides family obligation.

Go again, find different counselor. Your first one being a bust doesn't mean they all will be, and clearly just going and trying to power through it isn't working for you.

*hugs*

That sucks. I want to urge you to take full advantage of whatever counseling services your school offers. Also, I'd check out the local tutoring center; there may be a workshop or two on dealifg with test anxiety. Even if you have to hear some stuff you already know, wait until the end, go up and talk to the presenter about what's going on with you. It's hard to ask, but definitely worth it.

I don't have test anxiety, just social/general anxiety. Test anxiety is like, the one thing I'm lucky enough not to have. I failed my class cause I'm just stupid (and the insomnia didn't help, but mostly cause I'm stupid.)

But I'm an art major so I don't even usually take tests. (Didn't mention that in previous comments cause I'm embarrassed.) And lbr if I'm barely passing in a useless major like mine, I have nothing to contribute academically/in life generally.

AYART

I meant more like, you could attend one of these sessions and then approach the facilitator and see if they could help you and/or refer you to someone who could help.

It sounds like you're being really hard on yourself. Please remember you are not alone.

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