[ SECRET POST #3081 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3081 ⌋

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[linked for porn, illustrated, oglaf]








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Re: IF you live in the UK TW

[(Anonymous)]

I had my first therapy season today. CBT. One of the questions on the form I took with asked "Do you think about harming yourself of suicide" and the answers were

1-Never 2-Some days 3-Most days and 4-Everyday

I scored a big old 4.

Therapist talked to me about it for about 20 mins and ends up freaking out. "I can't help you, but I also can't let you go without speaking to the crisis team. If you leave here and don't see the crisis team I am obligated to call the police"

I wait for a significant length of time. I see the crisis team. we talk for 10 mins. they decide that I've done this to myself, and they can't help me. I need to either kill myself or decide not to. That's all. I should continue with my CBT and maybe swap meds and stop sleeping so much. Have a nice day.

I was genuinely hoping there would be some help. Something encouraging. Somthing. Anything. I have never felt more hopeless.

Re: IF you live in the UK TW

[(Anonymous)]

Oh that's awful. I'm so sorry you've had such a terrible experience. *hugs*
I wish I could say something that wasn't going to just seem like an empty platitude, but my heart genuinely goes out to you anon. Sending you all the love and well wishes. <3

Re: IF you live in the UK TW

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you. I just want everything to fuck off.

Re: IF you live in the UK TW

[(Anonymous)]

That's awful, I'm so sorry.

I know it can be incredibly difficult to articulate things like this, but what do you think would have helped you in that moment? What could they have said or done that would be encouraging for you? What about the meds and CBT advice didn't feel sufficient to you? Sometimes just being able to pinpoint and tell them exactly what it is you need from them can help.

Are there any other resources you can access? I know most of the helplines etc. aren't free, but IIRC Papyrus has a freephone (albeit not 24/7 unfortunately, I think they're 10-10 on weekdays and 2-5 on weekends) helpline for younger people with thoughts of harm/suicide.

Call: 0800 068 41 41

Email: pat@papyrus-uk.org

SMS: 07786 209697

Re: IF you live in the UK TW

[(Anonymous)]

Wow. That's horrifying.

As messed up as health care finances are here in the USA, I think I've had better mental health care than that. Then again, I don't actually answer the suicide question quite that way.

Re: IF you live in the UK TW

[(Anonymous)]

That is horrifying. Any chance you could contact a therapist over the internet instead? Skype sessions instead of having to be local? Or is the cost prohibitive?