[ SECRET POST #3107 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3107 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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02.
[Fire Emblem: Fates]


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03.
[Ocean's 11]


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04.
[Little Nicky]


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05.
[Devil Survivor 2]


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06.
[Sens8]


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08.
[Mariqueen Reznor]


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09.
[Battle Creek]


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10.
[Lucifer (TV)]


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11.
[Neil Gaiman]









Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 037 secrets from Secret Submission Post #444.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Re: Families, realizations about, etc.

[(Anonymous)]

The moment I realized I didn't have to be attached to people who don't genuinely give a fuck about me. That I didn't have to torture myself into forcing a connection because family and then hate myself for not caring more, for not wanting to care more, and blame myself for any situation that went south. That I did, in fact, not owe an incompetent, angry narcissist a goddamn thing, not even my presence. That I don't deserve to be anyone's punching bag and be blamed for their shortcomings because I was supposed to not let everything go to pot.

That I am a pretty lousy daughter. But then, the ones that bred me weren't exactly ever going to win the parent of the year award.

That every failed relationship I've had (friend, familial, lover, acquaintance, etc) can be attributed to the ambivalence of my upbringing, the violation of almost every boundary I have by people I trusted, or should have been able to trust. That I still don't know how to be a halfway decent friend to anyone, that I'm always worrying about how someone I might barely know will perceive me, if they'll see me as this horrible person because all my reciprocal actions are either awkward or nonexistent. That I may never be able to make friends or keep friends at this age, because I don't know how to reach out without being annoyingly needy or just a burden. And even if I do, I may be always holding back for that reason and feel like they'll never truly know me.

That I have a long road ahead of me, a lifetime of deprogramming all of these awful thought processes and equally terrible behaviors, and teaching myself not just how to adult, but how to be a functional one in society, regardless of what society thinks.