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fandomsecrets2015-07-08 07:29 pm
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(Anonymous) 2015-07-08 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)no subject
(Anonymous) 2015-07-08 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)no subject
OP
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 12:47 am (UTC)(link)Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 03:44 am (UTC)(link)Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 04:14 am (UTC)(link)Re: OP, hope this helps
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 10:21 am (UTC)(link)The fact is that you were drawn to these kinds of fics in particular above all others. I'm sure there were other fanfic available but those were your favorites. As you guessed, it's not likely to have been the fanfic that created this kink in you but was just there to explore it when you went looking, perhaps too early for your comfort.
I really do sympathise, but please remember these are just rape fantasies. You're hurting no one, no matter how much other people try to tell you your sexual tastes are wrong or problematic or unacceptable.
Would you condemn someone who liked murder mystery dramas for being entertained by murder? In the same way, fictional rape is just fiction.
The good news is that you're likely to develop a wider range of sexual interests as you grow older. It's extremely common for younger people to be drawn to rape fantasies because at that age your experience is limited, so the fantasy of having someone else in control and so be "responsible" for the sex is highly attractive. As you get more experience in life, your tastes will evolve.
My fandom is filled with rapefic written by obviously young people. Its a really common early sexual fantasy. You're not the only one, no matter who's trying to shame you for it.
Re: OP, hope this helps
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)I'm not sure this is the whole explanation, but I think it might be part of it.
Re: OP, hope this helps
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)goddammit
Re: OP
(Anonymous) 2015-07-09 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)What you fantasize about =/= something you want to happen to yourself or others.
Like I'm writing a story that features incest. I have a large family. I do NOT want to have sex with any of my relatives. But I'm having a ton of fun working with and around that situation on a theoretical level.
And I will also echo that as someone who grew up before the Internet was publicly available, my first exposure was my Dad's porn stash (magazines and XXX videos). Where there are curious teenagers, porn will be found.