[ SECRET POST #3162 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3162 ⌋

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[Final Fantasy X]


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[The Silence of the Lambs]


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[Benedict Cumberbatch, Morpheus from Sandman]


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[Final Fantasy VI]


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[Assigned Male]


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[Rihanna - Bitch Better Have My Money video]



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[Brooklyn 99]













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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

This comment makes me think you're probably a far worse person than the "stuck up blonde bitches" you're still grudging against from high school. Like, holy shit, I hope you're like nineteen or something; otherwise, maybe try developing some perspective. (I say this as someone who was bullied in HS.)

nayrt

[(Anonymous)]

Good for you that you were able to get over what happened to you in high school. And I mean that sincerely. I was severely bullied almost my entire school life, and having to deal with that, along with a not so stable family life, I didn't stand much of a chance. Even now as an adult who's almost 30, those earlier years led me down a path where I remained a passive victim to people whom I thought were friends, and other things. It's only been recently that I've been able to try to work on getting my life back together and regaining my confidence, but I've yet to raise my self-esteem. It's a struggle for me to get out of bed every day and take care of myself. A lot of the time, I think back on what I went through as I was growing up, and, sometimes, having those little revenge fantasies was enough to motivate me. I realize now that deriving pleasure in vindication is probably not the healthiest thing to do, but it makes life just a little bit easier.

sorry for the tl'dr, but I just thought I'd help you gain a little perspective yourself.

Re: nayrt

[(Anonymous)]

NA I had a similar background (severe bullying / home abuse) and at nearly 40, am still coming to terms with it. I've been a victim of abuse a few times since since and am fighting to re/gain respect in my current relationship (should I leave? million dollar question).

I used to have incredibly violent fantasies but redirected them to fanficcy type vignettes of an antihero type character in my head. I'm still pretty misanthropic and suspicious of people, but I'm trying to change. I think having an outlet for anger is good, but I try not to stew/wallow in it, because that has literally hurt my body as well as my mind and life circumstances.

Re: nayrt

[(Anonymous)]

Nowhere in my comment did I say one has to be completely over the bullying they sustained in their younger years. But to have grown into adulthood and still be in the "seething rage" portion of your dealing with it is...well, at that point it says a lot more about the person who's still seething with rage than it says about the bullies, who may very well have grown up to figured some things out and become pretty decent people themselves.

Looking back, it's extremely easy to see how the majority of school-aged bullies are struggling with their own feelings of failure, inadequacy, and inner ugliness. That doesn't mean their behavior isn't cruel, but it does (or ought to) make an adult person reconsider the complexity of a bully's character and of their motivations. Plus, as an adult, I don't feel I have much business condemning people whose bad behavior against me was committed well before they reached adulthood. The kids who actively push a peer to suicide (like repetitively urging them to do it)? Okay, yeah, I can't really see letting them off the hook for something like that. Or the kids who gang up and beat one of their peers to a pulp - again, an exception to what I'm saying. But for the most part, as cruel at school-age bullying is, I don't believe those kids deserve to have their teenage actions held against them as adults.

I just thought I'd help you gain a little perspective yourself.

Nope, I like the perspective I've got thanks.

Re: nayrt

[(Anonymous)]

SA

That was a bit glib. One thing these comments have gotten me to think about is that an abusive home life seems to be a common factor for people who haven't managed to emotionally deal with their experience of school-aged bullying. Maybe because people with an abusive home life tend to lump all the bullying they experienced together into one thing, thus conflating the bullying they sustained as school (by peers) with the bullying they sustained at home (by adults in positions of power over them). And the thing is, I don't forgive bad/abusive parenting; I definitely hold it against the parent. But I don't forgive parents who are bullies/abusive specifically because they're parents. They are adults and they are inherently in a position of almost absolute authority over their children. What's more, they asked for the challenges they now face as parents, and they have a deep responsibility to meet those challenges with as much sensitivity and generosity of spirit as they can. Kids who are bullies have no such authority over, or responsibility to, their peers.

My home life was...difficult. Lots of death, lots of poverty, lots of instability in my living situation, and a bit of shitty conduct from one half the parental landscape. But I also had one parent who loved me unconditionally, and who was the most generous, patient, nurturing parent a child could wish for. That's the foundation I built my understanding of the world on, and that's why I believe in being sensitive, in hindsight, to the kids who bullied me. Because they were just kids, like I was, and who knows where they were coming from at that point in their lives. Who knows what they'd been taught in their home environment, and who knows what they were dealing with internally?