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⌈ Secret Post #3190 ⌋

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[Angry Birds (Movie)]

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[The Great British Bake Off (series 6)]

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[Jennifer Nettles, Ronnie Dunn]

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[Free!]

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[Hannibal]

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[Jennifer Lien, who played Kes in Star Trek: Voyager]

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[BBC Robin Hood]

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(Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie/The Mirror Empire by Kameron Hurley)

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I think for the most part, I am happy. I do have bad days, and I complain a lot about stupid things, but if you ask me how I feel about my life, I'd say I'm happy.

I put my life in perspective. I have a roof over my head, I can afford to live the life I live quite comfortably, my job doesn't make my miserable and pays me well enough after all the hard work and time I put into it, I don't have a lot of issues with my family so for the most part we're a happy family, I don't have a lot of friends but the ones I do have I enjoy their company.

I spent a lot of my adolescence and a good chunk of my early teens relatively depressed with my lot in life. It took a lot (A LOT) of time experiencing life and a lot of self reflection for me to appreciate the life I have. It took a lot of time to take my life into my own hands and create my own happiness. I know everyone has their own life experiences so we all can't deal with life the same way, but I think I spent a lot of my life feeling sorry for myself and there were some legit experiences that directed me toward that path, but the older I became the more I realized that it didn't help me any that I felt miserable but didn't do anything to improve it. I had more control of my life as an adult than I did as a teen, so it was up to me to make me happy, not some miracle I seemed to be waiting for.

It took some time to also realize that I'm not the only person in the world struggling. It seemed like my form of sadness and lot in life was unique to me, and that no one understood how sad I felt and how my insecurities and fears and self doubt were eating me up from the inside, ruining my self worth, but then I began to realize that a lot of people who are both older and younger than me were just as lost as I was, and that didn't stop some of them from living their lives.

I don't know when it exactly began to dawn on me, but as more time went on, I began to shrug off the thought that perhaps everyone I encountered in my life was judging me. Fuck them if they don't respect me or think much of me. They're probably being judgmental because their own lives are shitty, or they're just fucking assholes who I wouldn't want to be associated with anyway. I just began to have little to no fucks left to give with what others thought of me. If what I did made me happy and wasn't harming anyone, FUCK IT, Imma do what I please. Also, I learned that most people are more caught up in their owns lives and no one was looking that deeply into my life except for myself.

I still struggle with insecurities I have and I do catch myself worrying that I pissed my friends off for reasons I don't know if they don't answer calls or texts, but I am able to remind myself to stop psyching myself out.

I think it's a lot of work to find happiness, but I also think it's not as complex as some may think it is.

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