[ SECRET POST #3228 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3228 ⌋

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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I literally just felt the moment when I stopped caring about anything in the world. It's liberating.

[(Anonymous)]

yeah, that's a major plateau stage of depression. Take care of yourself and reach out if you need it.

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, I know. I don't really have anyone, though. Oh well.

[(Anonymous)]

it can be oddly relaxing for a bit, but when it wears off, hoo motherfucker, that's a ride.

anyway, you have us other nonnies and even some named users to vent to. put up a private blog, shit your emotions out and then post or delete as necessary. Do small things to take yourself out of your box; like don't press yourself out of your comfort zone but like go get a coffee once in a while or something.

Is there anyone you can talk to? Family member that doesn't suck? A friend? There's therapy lines and text, too. Not that you may want them right now, but they're out there for when you want them.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not sure I know what my comfort zone is. I don't do a lot lately but sit around feeling guilty for not doing things. I mean, up til now. Uh... I don't really have friends, either. I know people, but they don't really seem to give a shit about my well-being. Only family who will listen me complain without saying I need God or a mental hospital is about 1300 miles away. She does what she can.

[cenobitic_anchorite]

I'm sorry. I've been there, with the immobilized guilt thing. It can really dig in for a while, even mixed up with the volume down on the rest of your emotions.

At least you can get that family member via email or phone or something. That's a start, and know that they care. That means something. And maybe the people you know you can't be sure of, but I'm someone you don't know and, maybe weirdly, I care. If you need to talk or anything, I'm available pretty easy.

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks. I don't really know what else to say.

[cenobitic_anchorite]

Don't worry about it. If something comes up, I'd be happy to listen. Otherwise, take care of yourself as best you can, okay?

[(Anonymous)]

Can't really make any promises. Was basically guilt that kept me going this long. Now I'm not sure what to expect, although that other anon seemed to think it would go downhill from here.

[(Anonymous)]

This is still Cenobitic, I'm just elsewhere and I never remember my password.

Don't know that it's about going downhill, just that the next emotional state - whatever and whenever it is - can be tough. The last time I was down, the next thing for me after the apathy stage was anger. It's mostly just having some kind of way to work through or talk through it.

I guess it might be something to examine why you feel guilty kept you going and what could be a better replacement. For your own sake, not anything that's my business. Small goals, things to look forward to, even if they might seem silly or useless at first.

[(Anonymous)]

Hmm I dunno. I'm really tired and I can't really process this at the moment. Think I'm gonna call it a night.

[(Anonymous)]

I hope you sleep well!

[(Anonymous)]

Also, it's nice to just not give a shit after so long.

[caerbannog]

Definitely have those moments. Then I feel bad and go give a homeless man some coins or give attention to my pet or send messages to someone.

[(Anonymous)]

Did the message thing, but she's gone to sleep for the night now, thus FS.

[(Anonymous)]

I've been there. Got super-stressed at work, in a pressure cooker work environment, and then boom! Had a crying breakdown, cried it all out, and the next day I was done with worry. The crises at work still existed, but they weren't consuming my life anymore. Like you said, it was very freeing.

And now I never ever let my stress get that bad again.