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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2015-11-20 06:32 pm

[ SECRET POST #3243 ]


⌈ Secret Post #3243 ⌋

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Re: Stuff you got no one to say to

(Anonymous) 2015-11-21 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
This is a confession, I guess? The autism secrets reminded me, and I've been thinking about it lately anyway...

My mom tells me every so often that I should look at getting tested for autism diagnosis. I always tell her I just don't see what good it's going to do me at this age to find out if I'm autistic or not, but the truth is I'm too scared to know either way. Both outcomes scare me for different reasons. I grew up learning to see autism as a defect, something to be ashamed of, something that needed fixing; and even though I know that's wrong now, I know I'll still feel like a lesser person if I know I'm autistic.

But if I'm not autistic, then that means there's no reason for me to be the way I am. All the things people think are wrong with me aren't because of autism, they're just pure me being a freak because for some reason I chose to be. I don't know which would be worse, but lately I've been feeling like I need to know, even though I'm scared.

Re: Stuff you got no one to say to

(Anonymous) 2015-11-21 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
I think it's a good idea to get tested. You'll know once and for all. Even if it's not autism, you might reframe that fear as eliminating one possible explanation but continuing your search for why you are the way you are. Either way, it might be time to look into therapy so you have someone to discuss these worries with.