[ SECRET POST #3277 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3277 ⌋

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[Leonardo DiCaprio]



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[John Barrowman]


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[Jurassic Park III, Alan/Billy]


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Comments

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I touch other people so infrequently I can often go back days in my head trying to remember the last time it happened, even incidentally. The idea of being able to, like, touch and cuddle with someone on a regular basis seems like some kind of faraway, semi-mythical paradise. I can't stop feeling like my body is disgusting and terrible. I should really go back into therapy. I mean I probably wouldn't talk about these things specifically, because I'm very ashamed of them, but it'd probably help in other ways.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I feel you, bro. Same here, except replace days with weeks/months.

It's so rare that it actually is sort of frightening now when people touch me. I don't even know how to respond, it's just startling and weird and bizarre feeling. I see people talk about characters being touch-starved in fic and shit, and I'm not sure if they realize that that's a thing that actually happens in real life.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I feel very similarly, OP. I rarely touch or am touched by people, to the point where when it does incidentally happen, it's rather shocking. I just cannot fathom a reality in which hugs or any physical contact is normal to me. I don't even know if I really want contact, because it's something I've never really experienced. I don't want to inflict my ugliness on other people, but I'm also a little bit repelled by them too.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

If it makes you feel any better, you are not alone -- I feel the exact same way, and I totally get you about that "faraway, semi-mythical paradise" aspect. It's just unfathomable to me that anyone would ever want to touch me or want me to touch them, let alone find me attractive or lovable.

To complicate things, I have a chronic skin disorder and dermotillomania on top of that, so my skin is really terrible and unsightly. I *don't* want anyone to see me or touch me, because of that (even though I *do*...in theory). I've never had sex and probably never will, because for the life of me I cannot imagine being in a situation where I am comfortable letting myself be touched and my partner is comfortable touching me.

Fuck, I didn't mean to be so depressed on Christmas Eve. :(

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Sorry if this is going into creeper territory, but I really like the texture of skin that isn't smooth. Scars, callouses, moles, etc. As long as the areas can be touched firmly (tight hug level), I dig it.

I know I'm not the only one out there. There are people who will like or be indifferent to your skin condition.

I won't lie and say it doesn't limit your dating pool, but the number of potential partners is far from zero.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I had a lot of skin problems for a while too, and while I don't want any sexual intimacy with anyone, it did make me uncomfortable and feel abnormal. But when I think about when I hug people, or when I just am around people I like, hold hands, things like that... I realize I have never thought about what their skin is like, what I like most is that I can feel close to them/their warmth? For some people I think it's less what someone looks/feels like, but that they like that person so much, all they want is to be near them. Thinking of that has helped me get over a bit of my own dislike of myself.