[ SECRET POST #3277 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3277 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Leonardo DiCaprio]



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[John Barrowman]


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[Jurassic Park III, Alan/Billy]


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Comments

Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Confessions, post 'em here.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I don't know what my relationship is.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

What's it like?

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Mine is just sitting around waiting for the other party to figure out that it's over, right now. I'm in no rush.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I live vicariously through smutty fanfiction because my sex life is crap.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

same except also with romance / fluff / non-sexual physical intimacy

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I live vicariously through smutty fanfiction because I have no sex life. Fic is all I've got. Well, that in porn. I wish I wasn't so shy and unattractive because I really, really need to get laid.

Re: Confession thread

[feotakahari]

I can't honestly believe in the idea of a divine figure that is male.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

It's Christmas eve. We're supposed to be doing family things. And all I want to do is stay in my room reading PWPs. I'm really horny to the point of discomfort. Damn it. Why does my body do this to my today of all days?

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

When the Paris attacks happened last month, all I could think of was the song by Judy Garland "Get Happy" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2U-rBZREQMw I still kind of feel guilty for it.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I finally realized what my ultimate kink which will never be fulfilled is.
I want to BE the overpowered Brave Protector and be sub to my protectee. fml

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I sometimes wish there was a word for "most gay but also attracted to mythological creatures of the opposite sex (like mermaids and dryads and whatnot), just not real people of the opposite sex".

That'd probably be delving into overly-specific tumblr snowflake labeling territory though, so as much as I wish such a word existed I have no desire to actually make up a word for it.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I really don't do anything helpful for anyone else.
Usually I am self centered.
Even to the point that I would rather masturbate to fic than make love to my fiance.
Sometimes I feel like a horrible person.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I touch other people so infrequently I can often go back days in my head trying to remember the last time it happened, even incidentally. The idea of being able to, like, touch and cuddle with someone on a regular basis seems like some kind of faraway, semi-mythical paradise. I can't stop feeling like my body is disgusting and terrible. I should really go back into therapy. I mean I probably wouldn't talk about these things specifically, because I'm very ashamed of them, but it'd probably help in other ways.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I realized the other day I have so much internalized homophobia I hate myself for being a lesbian, I wish I was any other orientation, and that's probably why I still hate myself so much for even wanting to have sex with my girlfriend of a year. I've known I was a lesbian for years so it feels stupid that I just put this together, and as a result I have told absolutely no one, and have just been upset about it in secret.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I don't think I'm a feminist any more.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

That one anti-Thanksgiving anon is a dick, but I kind of agree with them? Although I don't think the issue is as black-and-white as they were making it out to be. That is to say, I don't think Thanksgiving is strictly a Christian holiday and can never ever be called secular, but I do think it's disingenuous to pretend that it isn't tied to a specific culture that a lot of non-Christian people (and some Christian people, for that matter) in North America weren't raised with.

My family never celebrated Thanksgiving because it just wasn't part of our culture or our traditions, and I don't appreciate it when people try to explain to me that not celebrating it is wrong or that I was somehow deprived and Thanksgiving is totally secular omg so why won't u celebrate it?!?!

This is something that's happened to me many times throughout my life, and every time I've tried to counter with "we don't celebrate it because it's not part of our culture" I'd get hit back with "But it's part of Canadian culture!!!!!! You're Canadian aren't you?!?!?! Why won't you celebrate Thanksgiving!!!!"

The same thing happens with Christmas to an extent, but with Christmas people are more likely to accept that I don't celebrate it because it's widely acknowledged that Christmas is not a 100% secular holiday. With Thanksgiving though, since its considered secular I'm made to feel like I have no "excuse" for not celebrating it, when honestly, I don't think I should need an excuse. I think it should be enough for me to simply say "I don't want to." But it never is enough. People still get on my case about it.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Yesterday, I was sad there was no confessions thread because I had something on my chest, but now I don't remember what it was. :(

I'll confess this:

I've been in therapy for three years, and sometimes I think I was better off before I started. Now I feel like I have no idea who I am, I can't tell how I come across to others, when I self-reflect I can't tell what's normal/healthy to think or feel and what's disordered, I can't tell if I'm making mountains out of molehills or if I'm actually minimizing serious problems....I just feel completely out to sea.

If you asked me to describe myself as a person, I really couldn't tell you anymore, and I don't like the way this feels.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I had resigned myself to living the rest of my life alone. I've only had a few partners, and the last was about a decade ago. But I've started having a crush on a friend of mine whose interests are very similar. The issues are that I don't want to risk wrecking the friendship and more importantly that there is a large age gap. So I'm not likely to act on the crush. However, now it feels so much worse to contemplate living out the rest of my life alone because I have this chance possibly here.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I started a nano project I didn't intend to do much with where out of not thinking too much about it I made a somewhat self-based protagonist with my name fully intending to change it in editing.

Funny thing is as I wrote this story they slowly changed from being simply a self-insert that's purpose was to be more or less an audience surrogate experiencing things to an actual character in their own right with their own background and a nickname slightly different and spelled differently with some personal reason for it (not a special snowflake weird spelling but just a variation on a common spelling different enough from mine). It's become a part of them, and now....I feel weird changing it. I like it the way it is and I feel like changing it would just be to appease people who might find out and think it's this or that.

And really that feels rather pointless. I think I wan to keep it the way it is because I see them as less being named "after me" and just sharing a name while being a character. I mean fuck, my name isn't just mine.

I don't take it offensively if people don't like them (a person I showed it to didn't . IDC Tried to fix what I could but not everyone will like it yanno) they have flaws I can see people disliking and they're not the most interesting person in the story (the plainest actually). I like writing them because they're the easiest to write, but I find other characters refreshing and interesting to slip into because they're cool and interesting for other reasons.

When I do get this published after a few more rounds of editing I plan on writing under a pseudonym (which i was going to do anyway to separate public from private life).

tl;dr- Gave my character the same name as me, apparently a big sin of writing. Do I feel bad? Not really. The character isn't me. Whatevs.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm an adult over the age of 30 and not at all motivated to work. I'd rather just live in a squat and dream the rest of my life away. I may be evicted soon. I want to sign myself off of the dole and just run away and die.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

It was Me Austin! It was Me all along!

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm starting to hate the word "butthurt". It's gone from meaning "offended over stupid petty shit" to "offended" in general.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm just ruining my life and lying to my family about it. I skipped school for months now but never told my parents, I'm burning money in video games but never have enough motivation to find a job or even get out of the house. I know that when everyone knows they are gonna be dissapointed in me (at least more than they already do) and hate me and I can't even care about it.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm thinking of giving up on trying to write professionally.