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case) wrote in
fandomsecrets2016-01-08 06:42 pm
[ SECRET POST #3292 ]
⌈ Secret Post #3292 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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06. [SPOILERS for Hunger Games]

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07. [SPOILERS for The Force Awakens]

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09. [WARNING for eating disorders]

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10. [WARNING for rape]

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11. [WARNING for rape]

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Transcript by OP
TL;DR: I can’t read smut fic with skinny female characters.
I am a fat woman with an eating disorder and dysphoria. (So I am aware some of the things I say in this secret will sound irrational). And... I can't read smut fic about thin, beautiful female characters. I compare myself to them, and feel disgusting, gross, and flawed. I want to be them, but not because of the sexy content of the fic; I am just reminded how much I wish I wasn't me. None of the fandoms I'm in (other than SU, which I'm not interested in reading smut for, but dear lord, is reading some of the gen fic/looking at gen fanart in that fandom so refreshing and comforting) so most of the time I'll seek out PWP with my kinks from fandoms that have fat characters, and replace the names to my fav pairings. Or I'll seek out fat fetish fic for my fandoms.
(I was looking for a sad stock image but this one made me happy, so... ignore the fact that it doesn't really match the tone of the secret).