[ SECRET POST #3313 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3313 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Darren Criss]


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[Blind Spot]


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10. [SPOILERS for Undertale]





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12. [WARNING for incest, underage?]



(Free! Iwatobi Swim Club)


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13. [WARNING for rape]



[Jessica Jones, Star Wars, Faults, Dredd, Cucumber Quest]


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15. [WARNING for incest, bestiality]



[how to train your dragon/race to the edge]

























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Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I get angrier and angrier about an old relationship.

It's weird. The anger isn't specifically AT him. I've realized that he's a fucking banal boring twit and I sincerely think I might forget his name in the next five years. I already had to correct myself from using his old online handle rather than his actual name when talking to somebody about something. He's not a real person to me anymore. I'm angry about what he did to me and the other women. I'm angry at him as a life event, I guess.

And the thing is, the more my life moves on and gets better--success, new relationship, etc--the worse the anger gets. Like the relationship: I'm now realizing what I WASN'T getting with the jerk. Do you have any idea how much more fulfilling sex is with a person who actually respects you? I didn't know there was a difference. I thought I was the problem. Do you have any idea how appalling it is to realize you would have professionally limited yourself for someone who never cared about you? I would have sacrificed it.

The thing is: I know this isn't healthy. But not being angry would be letting go of my self esteem. I have the right to be angry about someone wronging me. It sucks, basically.

[(Anonymous)]

I dunno. I think we all grieve (or get super pissed) for things we never had, or for time lost. It's weird, but sometimes the biggest rages and heartbreaks don't happen until you're far away, and you're able to look at things from a distance and let everything sink in. You definitely weren't the problem. Something about the relationship just wasn't right, and you didn't realize it until you'd invested all that time into it. Fortunately, something happened, and you were able to part ways and find a relationship that was right.

My concern with your post is where you say he's "not a real person" to you. Obviously, I don't know the guy. I have no idea what he did to the other women, and you've only described his failures in vague terms (lack of respect, lack of caring). But the thing is, he is a real person no matter how you feel about him. He may be an idiot or an asshole, or maybe just clueless as hell, but he's still a human. Yes, you have a right to be angry about him wronging you, but no amount of anger will change the outcome of your relationship with him. And looking back, would you want it to?

So you loved a person who wasn't available to you (emotionally, romantically) in a way he should have been, and you were willing to make sacrifices for his sake. You weren't wrong for willing, and you weren't wrong for loving.

You can look at it this way: thanks to him, you know how NOT to treat someone you care about. And thanks to your new S.O., and well as the changes in your life, you now know what a healthy, respectful, fulfilling relationship is.