[ SECRET POST #3331 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3331 ⌋

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[RPF Hillary Clinton / Henry Kissinger]
















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Comments

Re: Bad health complaining

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so tired of kidney stones. I just wish this minor one or two would just pass, dammit, as they are making me miserable. (But not so miserable that I can't force myself to go to work. I guess that is better than when I was in and out of the hospital last time? But being miserable at work isn't great either.)

I'm also so tired of being stressed and depressed. It just saps the will out of me. I need a new job, but I can't make myself do it. And my apartment is a disaster, but I can't bring myself to work on it. And just so many other things that logically I know I should be doing, but mentally I can't bring myself to do. And I can't see my life getting better in the future, so in my mind suicide has become more of a "when" rather than an "if".

And as I'm still paying off my hospital stay and surgeries (thank goodness for charity care, or I never would be able to pay off the super high deductible) and I have crap insurance, it's not like I can get treatment for anything short of getting hit by a bus. (Or needing to be hospitalized again, I guess.)

Re: Bad health complaining

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I recently fought with kidney stones, so I am sending you all the good karma I have. And I can identify with the anxiety and stuff, too. Keep hanging in there. Suicide is something I considered when I was was depressed, and it did get better. It's not great, but it's better! I actually spent a lot of time focused on the pop culture stuff I'd miss if I wasn't around and it actually helped me convince myself that it's better to see what's around the next corner of life.
I do really hope you start to feel better, and I am sending all my good karma your way.