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I'm at an awful spot in my life right now. I just graduated college, but have no job or money (I used to work at the college but had to leave upon graduation). The job market here in this small town is awful, there's nothing available that I meet the requirements for and every rare viable job I've applied or interviewed for didn't go through for me. Moving is not an option, as I don't even have money to fall back on or make rent payments with.

Right now I'm living with my family, but there's only one source of income coming in (2016 has been hard on us) and emotional abuse from another family member isn't helping my situation. I've tried to get money via commissions, t-shirt design, and patreon, but no one's been interested in any of it. At this point I'm ready to call it quits and stop leeching off my family's money. I'm not contributing to society and I only have a single friend. I want to keep living, but I just think everyone would be better off when I'm gone.

You never know what the future will hold for you.

Maybe things will get worse, but maybe things will get better. Are you really sure you want to give up just because life is a little hard right now? Something awesome could be just around the corner.

I'm not saying your feelings aren't valid (because they probably are, and you're probably right about everything being complete shit right now) but that doesn't mean that you necessarily know that ending things is the right decision. In certain circumstances, maybe it is, but are you really sure that a rough patch is one of them?

I'm pretty sure your 'single friend' would not agree that they would be better off. Likewise, if you have non-abusive relatives, they would be pretty much guaranteed to be upset. But more than that, YOU would not be better off. Because that's it. You're gone. And you would miss out. Clearly you have hobbies your interested in, given your history of commissions and design. Think about things you love. Foods you haven't tried, books you haven't read.

It's hard, it's so hard, but you have to keep going. Are there fast food places or grocery shops near you? They aren't ideal jobs, but if they have openings it will pay the bills while you continue to apply for more exciting things. (Apologies if you have already tried this, I'm covering my bases.) Make sure you've applied for any aid you qualify for in your area.

I'm sorry you're in an abusive place right now. I don't have much advice for that, other than to remember that you are not how they treat you. You are so much more than that.

Buy a van and haul on out. You'll just have to live in the van fr a while as you search for work.

What degree did you get at college anyway? You might be able to use that to get an employer to front you accommodation if it is valuable enough. Also have you tried applying for work on cruise ships, the pay is shit but there are no living costs to it. All else fails, join the military (not the marines though, see if the coast guard wants you).

I feel with you because I'm in a similar situation. Don't give up. I was pretty depressed last month but now things are looking up and they will for you, too.

On a practical note - if you want to make a contribution and you're currently having basic needs (rent and food)covered (in my case I have to pay rent and food clothing and education for my little daughter so I have to look for adequate payment) I'd ask around with family and acquaintances if you can help out, mow the lawn, help moving, shopping and that kind of stuff. Doing things outside with your hands helps a lot with depression.

You don't say where you are, but if you're a native English speaker and feel like you could handle the adventure, have you thought about applying to teach English for a year in South Korea, Japan or China? Most of the time they cover your rent and flight, so it's minimal investment on your part.

Please don't kill yourself. You have value immeasurably greater than whatever you could be "contributing to society" by having a job. Your value will never depend on what job you have, how many friends you have, if you're married, if you have children, what your abusive family member thinks of you, etc. You have the same value as everyone else, which is to say, you have infinite value. You have dignity and integrity which can never be diminished by your circumstances. You are irreplaceable. Please stay alive.

If you are in the USA, what about volunteering at one of the National Parks? Some jobs include housing, a meal allowance, and travel expense reimbursement.
https://www.volunteer.gov

There is also the Peace Corps- volunteer in another country for two years. They provide housing, a living stipend, training, two days of paid vacation per month, they pay for the travel to and from the country you are serving in, offer medical and dental care, and you get $8,000 when you finish the program.

The Job Corps might be able to help too. AmeriCorps could help as well.

The year or so right after graduating from college is the actual worst. But that part of your life will end if you just keep on living. You have *much* better days ahead.

Consider using your university's alumni services for networking or more ideas about jobs. Alums love helping each other, too--if there's anyone in your town or region who went to your university, reach out to them for help.

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