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fandomsecrets2016-09-21 06:32 pm
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[ SECRET POST #3549 ]
⌈ Secret Post #3549 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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[Fire Emblem Fates]
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[Stellan Skarsgård in River]
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[Labyrinth]
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[Mr. Clarke from Stranger Things]
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[Criminal Minds]
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Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 12:06 am (UTC)(link)There's a genre of HP Severitus fic where Harry is badly abused by the Dursleys and rescued by Snape. For a variety of common reasons, some considerably more plausible than others. Most of them are more than a little OOC, but I'm not really reading them for their relationship to canon, so that part doesn't bother me. This story, it's purely the ... the sense in the story, the feeling of claustophobia and fear and lack of control and not knowing what anyone is doing or why and not being able to help yourself or someone else who desperately needs it, and it's freaking me out. I know I should stop reading. I think I just ... I wanted it to get better. Whether realistic or not, I wanted to read far enough that things would stop feeling so pressurised and terrifying. It hasn't happened yet, and I'm getting bad enough that I think I genuinely NEED to stop reading.
I can't tell if the story is doing this on purpose and really excellently, or if I'm just severely overreacting to it for reasons I'm not completely sure on yet.
There is a genuine sense of drowning in the story, on both ends. This version of Harry is seven years old and amazingly traumatised, and this Snape has been forced into taking custody of him under threat of the kid immediately being sent right back to the fuckers who did it otherwise, and is trying to successfully manage juggling a new job in a new place, the only job he is potentially ever going to get, with trying to care for a frankly shattered kid who he has no idea how to help, while under what he believes is a legitimate threat of being sent to prison and the kid being sent straight back to hell. I waded in some thirty odd chapters and it's not getting better and I can't deal with it, I can't. I also want to murder this version of Albus Dumbledore, and again I can't tell if I'm supposed to or not, because he's being filtered through some incredibly pressurised and paranoid POVs, but seriously all I want to do is kick his fucking teeth in.
I am seriously getting violently upset and I need to stop reading and I get that and I will, I just don't understand why this is getting to me so bad. I've never had this response to even the most over the top abuse-and-rescue fics, and I've read what I thought were some whoppers. I can't even tell if the story is good or not, I'm reacting to it so viscerally that I can't tell what's natural and what's not. And I don't know why.
Fuck. Just. What the flying fuck just happened?
Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 12:27 am (UTC)(link)Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 01:20 am (UTC)(link)*offers hugs*
I'd be very surprised if the author intended for this level of emotional reaction (most fics of that genre go for "catharsis" rather than "genuinely panicky and upset", in my experience).
To be honest, it sounds like something in the fic triggered you (not meant in a condescending way). Obviously not the plotline, if you've read a lot of others without this sort of reaction, but possibly details or something else specific to the fic's portrayal. So I'd agree that stopping would be the best thing for now.
Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 01:43 pm (UTC)(link)*accepts hug* Thanks.
Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 03:38 am (UTC)(link)But, yes, anon, sometimes it's really hard to tell whether it's you or the story. I read one fanfic that fucked me up for well over a year. I had nightmares about it. I was warned and I waded in with some (but not nearly enough) knowledge, but to this day I still have no idea why it hit me so hard. Even now, sitting here thinking about it, I want to sit in a corner and wail.
I'm so sorry this is happening to you.
Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 01:31 pm (UTC)(link)In hindsight, after having a night to calm down over it, I suspect it was mostly me. Probably. And I think it's probably the focus on the rescuer's terror and the idea of being unable to help yourself let alone the child you're suddenly responsible for that might have ... hit harder. It's not the normal approach in such fics, I think, I don't remember coming across it too frequently, anyway. Either way. I am, ah. I'll leave you to it? I think I'm picking something different to read myself at this point.
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(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 01:44 pm (UTC)(link)Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 09:30 am (UTC)(link)Re: Panicky Fic Reaction
(Anonymous) 2016-09-22 01:38 pm (UTC)(link)