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Getting out of my head?

[(Anonymous)]

I've got depression and anxiety. It's gotten way better since I found the right medication (went through 2 before this after the 1st stopped working). I'm in a better place right now. But I still cannot shake the imposter feeling.

I aged out of health insurance, but my mother pays for two psychologist appointments a month and my psychiatrist appointment. I know I'm lucky because I've got a full-time job that pays decently in my field. But at least once a week, I feel like a loser. I have health insurance on Exchange. I feel bad about needing my mother's help to pay for healthcare, but it would be very tough to afford on my own. I don't know, I feel like I don't deserve to be where I'm at, like I lucked into my job and everyone will see it one day. And I think I'm taking too long to cope with everything - I'm 26 and my mother got sober at 17 (and we worked hard together to rebuild the family), why am I not over my childhood trauma yet?

I've been working on my therapist with this. My therapist says I'm way harder on myself than anyone else. I know it's something like imposter syndrome and I try to counter it by reminding myself I worked hard to graduate, I found this job myself, I get good results, etc. It doesn't always work.

Does anyone else have tips for getting out of my head when I'm thinking this way? It's unproductive and makes me feel worse or get anxious. Sigh. Mental health is such a complicated process.

Re: Getting out of my head?

[(Anonymous)]

Practice redirecting your brain/train of thought. It takes a lot of work, and sometimes you have to constantly redirect because you'll find yourself wandering back to those negative thoughts. But it becomes easier over time.

I'd also suggest really working on getting to a point where you can pay for your own appointments. That'll probably go a long way to making you feel like a "real adult" and that you've taken concrete steps you can stack up in your brain as "evidence" when you need that kind of thing for yourself.

Re: Getting out of my head?

[(Anonymous)]

I don't have any tips but I do have a lot of the same issues. Where it feels like anything that I accomplish is meaningless and not worthwhile just by virtue of the fact that I accomplished it, you know?

So, I don't know. Good luck. Hugs if wanted. Don't have any better advice for you.

Re: Getting out of my head?

[(Anonymous)]

I don't have any good long term advice, seeing as how I have similar issues myself, but I know when I'm spiraling sometimes focusing on one of my hobbies for a bit can help distract and center me. (Baking and drawing work particularly well for me since they keep my hands busy and I can focus on the result.) Would something like that be helpful in this case?