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⌈ Secret Post #3836 ⌋

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Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

My mom hasn't eaten in two days and the hospice social worker says once patients like my mom stop eating, they usually have around ~7-10 days to live, more likely 7 than 10. Her school friend who she hasn't seen in a couple years was willing to visit yesterday, but I told her to come next Tuesday because flying out here on the 4th would be nuts (big college party town, lots of drunk drivers and illegal fireworks.) But that was a couple weeks ago when it looked like my mom had months, not days, and I'm afraid she'll be too late. Mom's friend's recovering from surgery and couldn't come any earlier than this week.

And I'm terrified. I don't know if I'll be able to sit with her when she dies, seeing other relatives when they were clawing the air and wailing, fighting to breathe, freaked me out more than enough. Plus when my mom dies, I'll be down to two blood relatives and four relatives total, all but one of whom are 30+ years older than me, and I see the non-blood relative who's only in his late thirties maybe once every couple of years. The others I might see once a year. Mom's brother has contrived to be in Austria the next two weeks; he has a miraculous ability to be on another continent when his family members are dying--he was too late to help with his mom, dad, and eldest brother. He always asks if there's anything he can do, but he always gives the actual nasty soul squashing scut work of caring for sick and dying people, and the emotional labor of being moral support, a pass.

I have no friends to speak of, haven't made a new one since grade school when sharing snacks was all it took to make them, and haven't kept in contact with any of them. My mom was my closest friend and seeing her helpless and panicking and in pain hurts and I'm going to lose her. Neither of us believes in an afterlife or souls or reincarnation, only worm food. I hate this.

Re: Venting thread

[meredith44]

I'm so sorry. My father was in the car with me when he had a heart attack and died, and that was bad enough. I can only imagine how much worse it would be with everything drawn out. I am sending good thoughts your way, hoping you can get through this as best you can.

Re: Venting thread

[rosehiptea]

I am so sorry you're going through this.

I was also there when my father died. I didn't even realize he had died until the paramedics got there. But it wasn't drawn-out either.

I know how you feel about blood relatives too. I have only one, my son, and he lives in another state.

I will also send good thoughts of strength your way. I'm sorry your mom's brother isn't helping at all.

Is the hospice social worker any help overall?