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fandomsecrets2018-01-05 10:46 pm
[ SECRET POST #4020 ]
⌈ Secret Post #4020 ⌋
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02. [SPOILERS for The Last Jedi]

[Star Wars, TFA and TLJ]
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03. [SPOILERS for Orwell]

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04. [WARNING for discussion of rapefic]

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05. [WARNING for discussion of sexual violence]

[Goblin Slayer]
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06.[WARNING for discussion of Weinstein/sexual assault]

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07. [WARNING for discussion of rape]

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Re: why do I do anything
Trust me, you're wrong about most of these. I know, cliche bollocks, right? But no, I can assure you, I have met so many people who have these feelings that I'm starting to suspect the common denominator is me (like, am I the typhoid mary of self hatred?) Anyway, please trust me on this, I kinda know of where I speak on this one, these feelings feel like they stem from reality, but I promise you, they do not. You are looking at reality through a very warped window. That's what depression does. it warps the window. Your perception of yourself and your place in the world simply cannot be trusted. Like, you wouldn't trust someone with auditory hallucinations to be an air traffic controller, would you? Their fucked perceptions mean they wouldn't know if they were responding to actual information from pilots, or if they were hearing shit that wasn't there. You would recommend that they not be put in a position where their fucked perceptions could lead them to making a wrong and disastrous decision based on incorrect information. And that's what you have, a disease that gives you bad information. Trust me on this. You will not always feel like this. You may feel better in the morning, or next week, or whenever, but your perceptions will shift. It has to be said that you can help them shift quicker and with greater reliability and security with medical or professional help. Again, standard cliche advice, but again, it happens to be true. Of course it's not the only option you have to feel better, but it's the one I have personally observed to have the greater rate of success. But I get that you might not have the means to seek that out. What you do have, however, is a computer and an internet connection. there are places online where you can get help. Shit, just talking the issue through can help. Make sure you're not talking to a pillock, like, don't go to 4chan looking for help, but other than that... Well, shit, there are options. Be wary about trusting your own judgement while you suffer from this illness. You can find support.
TL;DR: This Too Shall Pass.