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Case ([personal profile] case) wrote in [community profile] fandomsecrets2018-01-28 02:34 pm

[ SECRET POST #4043 ]


⌈ Secret Post #4043 ⌋

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Suicide TW

(Anonymous) 2018-01-28 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I took an overdose. I'm really disappointed in myself. It doesn't seem to have done me any harm since I stopped before I went way, way overboard like the last time. It was very soft alcohol, a single prescription painkiller, and a blister pack of Ibufrofen. I tried to cut but couldn't get the razor out of the safety casing so just cut fingers and scratches.

As far as anyone who loves me is aware I do have anxiety and depression but they've been under control for a while now. Except recently I've been declining badly while simultaneously getting better at hiding my symptoms so no one has any idea. I just feel like a worthless failure. I'm 31. I have no long term job prospects. I'm aging out of the only work I can get. I'm probably not even going to be able to move out of my parent's house until I'm in my 40s. Everything is just an empty, pointless grind.

I'm fucking up constantly because my head's all over the place too. Accidentally broke one of my partner's favourite possessions, can't concentrate on anything anyone says to me. I'm just so so sick of this.

Re: Suicide TW

(Anonymous) 2018-01-29 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
{{HUGS}}

I'm worse off than you and about ten years older.