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I have to do my first long driving trip on my own. Hopefully nothing happens.

I offered to help family friends for a bit going through hard times by watching their booth at the local mini mall for some weekends.

it's 8 hours on Saturday and 6 on Sunday.

I just worry about being bored for that long, but I'm bringing some books, I can sit down and walk around, it's right by the doors so I can see the sun, and it's right by the grocery store so I can get lunch.

It's not a busy place, so I hope any transactions go smoothly and quickly so I can leave.

Life. The stupid surgery that I need that I may or may not have because of my stupid insurance. Which seems to have hit my mental health badly, or coincided with a bad period, or something. I'm having multiple panic attacks a day, feeling completely hopeless and numb, and yet crying randomly without actually feeling sad. Not suicidal, but I could get there easily. It is not good.

I’m sorry, I hope your insurance goes through soon so you can get the procedure you need.

Still have no idea about the status of my job. Shit is not getting better in Nicaragua. I feel like my life is on hold because I don't want to commit to anything in case I lose my job.

Thanks. :)

Job hunting.

My current job being an absolute nightmare for a lot of reasons.

Being currently ill.

A very traumatic anniversary approaching fast.

I haven’t done laundry in too long.

My hand hurts so bad that I couldn't play sports today, and sports are right now the only thing I'm living for, so

Ouch. Do you know what’s wrong? Can you see a doctor? I hope you feel better soon. What do you play? Presumably not football/soccer.

I’ve felt kind of shitty all day. Something a couple inches up and to the left of my navel is giving me some serious grief, and it even looks like that side of my abdomen is (more, I’m fat) swollen than the other.

But I don’t like going to see my doctor because when I made my first appointment after years of not having health insurance, and asked if I could be tested for PCOS, his response was that my irregular cycle and heavy-duty body hair that appeared in my early 20s would go away if I ate less processed food.

I’m sick of everything being reduced to a weight issue. I’ve never smoked or drank or used any drug stronger than ibuprofen, I haven’t eaten meat since I was 11 and cook a lot of my own veggie-heavy meals, and I walk at least 5 miles a day—I walked 8 yesterday.

I’ve got a family history of breast, colon, pancreatic, skin, liver, and blood (non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma) cancers (and prostate cancer but at least that’s not gonna happen) as well as alcoholism, addiction in general, suicide, schizophrenia, type 2 diabetes—grandma smoked like a chimney and swam in vodka though—and major depression (which so far seems the only one I have to deal with personally, thank fuck.) So yeah, doctor, lecture me more about my weight. If I was skinny I’d have nothing to worry about. *eyeroll*

ugh. I used to be fat and I went on a diet and lost over 100 pounds and my doctor STILL acts like a bitch about it even though I'm not even fat anymore.

tbh I'm about to walk into asshole territory. That is, I'll be within the vicinity of my abuser and I'm stressing all to fuck. I won't be visiting them, but I'll be within the city and unfortunately, it's a mandatory thing I can't get out of. I don't what I'll do if I come face to face with them. Don't know if I'll freak out, go off on them like a crazy person. Worst thing is nobody knows about the abuse. Some folks know I am NC with this person but they don't know the extent of the hell this POS put me through.

Worrying about my mom
Worrying about my as-of-lately shaky sanity
The fact i'm only getting 1-2 days a week at work and considering how poorly i handled deli i kinda deserve it
A toxic ex friend who continues to try and skype call me even when i've blocked them and they know my address

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