[ SECRET POST #4339 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4339 ⌋

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[Suits]


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[Fantastic Beasts 2, Toby Regbo]


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[Chicago PD]


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[Close Encounters of the Third Kind]


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[Gerard and Mikey Way, formerly of My Chemical Romance]


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Comments

Vent

[(Anonymous)]

Second comment, tw for mention of self harm, suicidal ideation and depression stuff

Re: Vent

[(Anonymous)]

A week ago my mom fell and fractured her spine - the spinal cord is okay but it’s still going to put her out for months. I’ve had to drop everything to help take care of her - and of course I want to help, I was so worried when I got the call and instantly wanted to help. I need to be there for her. But I’m also just dealing with a lot. I’m living paycheck to paycheck, struggling with depression and other mental illness, dealing with some minor relationship issues - and adding having to basically stay with my mom for at least week and a half, so the only time I’m not taking care of her is when I’m at my shitty job - and it’s right before Thanksgiving so I’m having to help her deal with my batshit relatives in preparation... and I feel so guilty complaining. I know she is feeling worse than me, so I have to stay strong and positive and not act tired or stressed or depressed... it’s making me feel bad guys. I keep having daydreams about self mutilation including my own death - which is not something I’d realistically do (though I do minorly self harm sometimes) but something I fantasize about when I’m beginning to go into a depression spiral - and intense feelings of like... I guess it’s depersonalization? Or something like it? It’s bad is what it is.

But I have to keep stable to support my mom but I feel like I’m dying. So I guess I’m anon venting it here. Thanks for reading.

Re: Vent

[(Anonymous)]

I'm really sorry you're going through this, anon. But please give yourself a break - you've got so much on your plate right now that it's no surprise it feels overwhelming and awful. Is there anyone who could help you out, even just a little by say... dropping off a meal or some groceries?

I hope you find some time each day and give yourself permission to NOT fake like you're happy. I don't know what kind of person your mother is, but unless she's some sort of heartless monster, I'd say that no, you don't have to pretend for her sake. Not all the time. Just saying out loud that you're stressed and struggling might ease a little of the pressure off.

Again, I'm so sorry and I hope things get better for you quickly.

Re: Vent

[(Anonymous)]

I do have help but it’s honestly still overwhelming. I’m 25 and can barely take care of myself. And my mom isn’t heartless, but there are a few factors on why I feel like I can’t talk about it to her which are: she’s very prideful and tough to a fault - I have to keep reminding her that she can’t just tough out a spinal fracture and she’s allowed to take painkillers, it doesn’t make her weak - and so that definitely colors her perception of how you deal with mental illness. Also, she is going through an even tougher time. She prides her independence, and I know this whole experience is traumatic for her, on top of some of her own depression issues. and so I worry if I talk about how hard this is on me she will feel guilty, or just won’t be in a mental place to feel sympathetic?

Idk it’s a complicated situation and everything sucks

Re: Vent

[(Anonymous)]

Hmmm. I can definitely see where you might've nailed this... she doesn't sound like she's in a good place to be sympathetic. I hope you find someone closer to you who is. Failing that, please come back and let us know how you're doing. It doesn't solve everything, but sometimes just having a place to vent about the shit in your life helps.

Re: Vent

[(Anonymous)]

Aww man, that really sucks. Sorry I can't give you any substantial advice, and I hope things get better for you soon.