[ SECRET POST #4840 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4840 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[The Caligula Effect]


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[Binging with Babish (youtube)]


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[Wang Yibo as Lan Wangji in The Untamed]


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[Star Trek: Deep Space Nine]


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[Star Trek Voyager]


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[Fights Break Sphere, aka Battle Through the Heavens]












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Comments

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Soooooo I got into a mini argument with a close friend about taking social distancing seriously about 3 weeks ago (they thought people scared about the outbreak were being too cautious and I thought people like my friend are the reason more people will get sick and die than if we reacted to this more seriously). I realized I had been condescending to my friend the next day and texted an apology. Told them they could take their time not talking to me because they were pretty mad. My friend and I are in a group chat with another friend of ours and since our argument it was just me and friend#2 mostly texting each other in that group chat. Last week I was feeling stressed so I took time off work (I do essential work and thankfully my boss has been kind in letting ppl use PTO even if they haven't worked enough hours to collect enough PTO hours) and texted said group that I was taking some time off work. Friend#2 responded with "hope you feel better!"
Friend#1 soon followed that text with a claim that they had been fined for being outside during their grocery run because there was a miscommunication with the cop who gave them the $50 fine and followed up with a quick "yeah OP hope you feel better soon". At first I thought friend#1 was serious about the fine but I realized it was April 1 and friend#1 is always trying to pull a prank on April 1. I texted back "sure jan it's April 1". And with friend#1 personally addressing me I thought maybe it was water under the bridge but realizing friend#1 was just pranking it just made me feel like friend#1 just wanted me to lower my defenses so I would fall for the joke that I don't find funny. By now I dont give any fucks if people tell me I take things too seriously. I would find it funny except people are dying while our government continually shows that they have no souls to care for the sick and dying and the people who are working right now, putting their own lives at risk every single day. They don't care that people are terrified that they don't have jobs or any means to pay for their lives and are worried that they might lose everything any day now. Like, you wanted me to feel bad for you just so you can throw it in my face that I fell for a joke? Like...I have nothing to offer aside from I'm sorry that I dont find that funny (???).
Friend#2 I'm sure doesn't want to get involved in the passive aggressive game Friend#1 and I somehow are playing now. Friend#1 didn't follow up with a denial or confirmation so I am assuming they were just joking. They instead changed the subject.
We soon began talking about face masks and I thought maybe we were getting tired of talking about COVID19 so I asked if either of them had picked up any new hobbies. Friend#1 changed the subject to COVID19 related stuff. I'm already an anxious person to begin with so I'm just reading friend#1's texts to be this passive aggressive move to mock me and my habits of taking COVID19 too seriously. Maybe they are, maybe they aren't, but knowing how petty friend#1 can be I am leaning more toward friend#1 wants to piss me off. So I've just completely disengaged from the group chat.
In the last couple of hours friend#1 has been sending a bunch of brain teasers and friend#2 finds that neutral ground so they are participating in the group chat. I'm finding myself to be a petty bitch and not texted back. I'm also pissed off that friend#1 is acting like queen of the group chat now with their brain teasers because when friend#1 was giving our group chat the silent treatment I shared a brain teaser I thought they both would enjoy. I know this is completely middle school but fuck my friend for being such a bitch right now. I can see friend#1 doing these things to get under my skin and I'm just questioning my own mind. Am I reading too much into this? What if friend#1 is just trying to move on and I'm the one who can't?
It doesn't help that my older sister (who I live with) has been extremely distant from me in the past couple of weeks. I don't know what I have done to piss her off but I can tell she doesnt want to interact with me. She and I aren't close but we tend to have small conversations when we're at home together, especially if it's just me and her and her family isn't around but just a constant semi wall from her when I try to engage.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

(Accidentally pressed enter and can't edit)
So I've kept my distance and stopped trying to engage with her. Funnily enough, whenever she needs to pay for a bill or borrow money from me suddenly she wants to sit and chat. Or I'll get 8 texts from her when I text her that I'm going grocery shopping after work.
I feel so stressed out over the world in general and I feel like a lot of unresolved childhood trauma is coming up that I'm not ready to face, and just the day to day stuff is also stressing me out.