[ SECRET POST #4981 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4981 ⌋

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Comments

TW eating disorders

[(Anonymous)]

I have compulsive overeating disorder and I have toxic, offensive thoughts about other eating disorders: that I wish I were "strong" enough to starve myself, or "brave" enough to force myself to throw up. I know those things aren't how it is and that people with other EDs whch happen to have the opposite results go through the same world of negative self-image and feeling out of control, and I'm horrible for wishing I could switch my harmful behavior that makes me hate myself for even more harmful behavior that I know would also make me hate myself.

I might not even look at any replies to this because I'm gutless nd I'm scared you guys will confirm I'm as horrible as I feel. Of course, it's one thing to say it, it's another thing to hear it. If I hurt anyone by making this confession, I'm really sorry.

Re: TW eating disorders

[tabaqui]

You're not horrible or terrible or bad. You have a issue in your brain with the way you think, is all. You recognize that, so that's fine. Regardless of what you *think*, you're not pushing yourself into another, different, as-destructive eating disorder, and that's good.

I hope that you are able to talk to someone, like a counselor or doctor, about dealing with your disorder. You didn't *ask* for your disorder; it's not a reflection on your soul or your character, it's not some kind of mark of inadequacy. It simply *is*, and if you are able to find a way to deal with it, control it, and change it for *your* betterment, then that is great. I hope you can, Anon. Take care of yourself.

Re: TW eating disorders

[chamonix]

I really feel for you. It's bad enough to struggle with an ED without also feeling guilty about the thoughts you're having about other EDs. It's like you can't catch a break.

Be kind to yourself. Toxic thoughts are impulsive and we can't necessarily stop them happening. It's how you react to those thoughts that show your character, and you have reacted to yours with self-awareness and compassion towards fellow sufferers. So don't beat yourself up - you're struggling with a debilitating disorder and you're doing the best you can.