[ SECRET POST #4981 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4981 ⌋

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Comments

Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Fandom or Non it doesn't matter.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I don't want to get married. It's like you're steadily gaining more and more independence in life and then you stop and throw it away to combine finances with someone who could put you in debt and cause you complex legal entanglement that could take years to unravel and recover from.

No thank you.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

same. as I get older I'm really starting to lean hard into my need to escape. I don't want to have to untangle a lot of snarly threads if I ever need to just bail on life and move somewhere new. by myself.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I don't want to get married either and it really worries my parents. They even sat me down and told me that it was okay if I was gay because all that mattered was that I have somebody who will love and care for me for the rest of my life. It was really sweet of them to say something like that, but I'm not gay. I've just never felt attracted to anybody and I don't think I ever will be. Plus, I like being alone and no way in hell would I share a bed with anybody, let alone stuff like bank accounts and an apartment.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Very wise decision.

Re: Confessions

[greghousesgf]

nothing wrong with that. it's better than being in an unhappy marriage out of some sense of duty like some people.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Same. For years I've been telling myself that "someday" I would want to find someone and maybe get married eventually, but the older I get, I continue to have zero interest in even being in another relationship (I've had a couple in the past that I was miserable in, because I felt like I was "supposed to" be with someone), let alone getting married, so I'm starting to realize it's most likely not going to happen. Every time I think about it, my involuntary reaction is just "ugh"...I just like my freedom and independence way too much. It's the same reason I don't have pets...I don't want to have to take care of anyone/thing except myself.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I mean, ideally you'd be screening pretty carefully against this risk and the type of people who'd put you at risk, but yeah, I can understand that. Not enough people gain real independence and live independently long enough before they get married, and it shows.

Re: Confessions

[caecilia]

there's nothing wrong with not getting married but like

you usually don't just marry some rando you don't trust

like you talk as if debt and divorce are a forgone conclusion

you do you I just find it kinda funny

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I have never gotten legally married or financially entangled with anyone, for this exact reason, even though I've been with the same partners for more than a quarter century.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Fair enough anon you do you. Personally getting married was the best thing that ever happened to me - which was unexpected. I don’t think I've ever been so in love. And even if it doesn't last forever, I'm glad to have taken the chance on him to be this happy.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

In my favorite fandom space, many people have started a crusade to educate others on why it's not a good thing to be racist or homophobic. It started as a pushback against the people who made a bunch of racist and/or homophobic posts after the Black Lives Matter movement gained traction. I get why it's a thing, but I also get really uncomfortable with people posting stuff like, "If you're not calling out white supremacy, you're just as bad as them and you're hurting minorities". The thing is, I am a minority and I do write letters and sign petitions and donate money, but I don't feel like educating people in my fandom spaces when I have to do it so often in real life. I want my fandom spot just to be a safe haven to discuss fandom and be my escape from the real world, but I feel like I can't say that to anybody because then I'll be accused of being racist and blacklisted too.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

As someone in one of my fandoms said (paraphrased), the "you're with us or against us" mentality never helps.

The sad part is, you shouldn't have to justify wanting a safe space in fandom, even though I don't think there is a completely safe space. And it's absolutely exhausting to be in a certain "mode" constantly, even when you want to be. So I get why you'd need an escape.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I feel you, nonny. Fandom is my escape from the shithole that is life currently, but it doesn't always allow that escape. :(

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I'm white, and the only political post I've made all year has been one that said, "I support BLM. I'm against racism and systemic abuses of power. I don't like to post about politics on my fandom blog. Just because I don't post about something here, doesn't mean I don't support it. I hope you're all staying safe."

Only two of my followers liked the post, but nobody unfollowed me. I mean, if they did, whatever. But they didn't.

Re: Confessions

[dani_phantasma]

Some days I'm almost at sick of trying. When am I going to feel excited over things like I used to?

Most days all I feel is paranoid fear, sadness or numbness.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Have you seen a doctor, you sound very depressed.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry you're hurting and I hope it gets better with time. Life has been really rough all around these past couple years.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I feel that so hard. :(

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

If I can't find someone who will participate in a very specific kink that I have then I'd rather be alone. It's just so central to my sexuality that if I can't get it then there's no point in me putting in the effort towards a romantic relationship. In a strange twist, in coming to terms with it my platonic friendships are growing stronger as I set that part of me aside.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

Have you tried looking on Fetlife or a similar site for kinky people, or maybe there's a site just for your fetish? You might have some luck if you look.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I'm an adult, I live with my parents, and I don't actually want to move out. If I won a million dollars I'd buy a house for all three of us; if I won fifty million dollars I'd *build* a house for all three of us. I don't want to live alone, I don't want to find a flatmate when I find most people deeply irritating, I sure as hell don't want to find a romantic partner and move in with them - I just want to keep living much as I am.

Pretty sure they'd like me to move out, though :/

TW eating disorders

[(Anonymous)]

I have compulsive overeating disorder and I have toxic, offensive thoughts about other eating disorders: that I wish I were "strong" enough to starve myself, or "brave" enough to force myself to throw up. I know those things aren't how it is and that people with other EDs whch happen to have the opposite results go through the same world of negative self-image and feeling out of control, and I'm horrible for wishing I could switch my harmful behavior that makes me hate myself for even more harmful behavior that I know would also make me hate myself.

I might not even look at any replies to this because I'm gutless nd I'm scared you guys will confirm I'm as horrible as I feel. Of course, it's one thing to say it, it's another thing to hear it. If I hurt anyone by making this confession, I'm really sorry.

TRIGGER WARNING for eating disorders

[(Anonymous)]

(Seriously, what I'm saying here is technically very mild, but could DEFINITELY be triggering.)







I have very narrow-set hips, so even though I've been distinctly skinny for most of my life, I've never had a thigh gap. I recently lost a little bit of weight (I'm right on the borderline of underweight right now), and for the first time in my life I have a small thigh gap. My confession is that I genuinely think it looks great--just really sexy and sleek. I have never liked that area of my body remotely as much as I like it now, with the gap.

Re: Confessions

[(Anonymous)]

I'm kind of annoyed at an artist friend I had an art trade with. They never told me whether my picture that I mailed to them arrived. They also never uploaded their trade on any of their other platforms, which is something they did for others they traded with. I also think it looked like they put a lot less effort into my piece than they did for others.
By now, I'm not sure if they genuinely forgot or if they just don't want to deal with me.