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There's a chance I might have cancer. I'm also long covid anon.

I am so very tired.

Oh no, I'm so sorry nonny. I really hope you don't. I hope you get better and that things in general start going well for you in your life. I wish I could send you hugs and all the nice things because you deserve them. I'm so sorry you've been going through all this. I really hope things change for you soon.

I'm so sorry :(

How big is the chance? I found a lump on my breast a few years ago. It was super stressful, and it took time to sort it out, but it turned out to be a cyst. I don't want to be "hey look it the bright side", because it sucks. But I'd say "take one day at the time" and do not despair until you actually have a diagnosis.

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I'm sorry, anon. I hope you get some good news.

(cozy werewolf anon)

all the hugs and good thoughts. Take care of yourself as much as you can. I hope you get better.

Oh god, nonny, I am so sorry. Sending you lots of good vibes and I really hope it's not cancer.

oh, god, I'm sorry.

Oh, damn. I'm so sorry you're going through all this hell. I hope you finally get some good health news <3.

I'm so sorry! {{{hugs}}}

Oh jeez that sucks, and I'm sorry. Here's hoping the symptoms just mimic cancer, or at least that it's a cancer that already has solid treatments and not a brand new one that only shows up with COVID.

On the (very teeny) bright side, if it's blood-related like a lot of COVID stuff seems to be, treatments for some kinds of leukemia and other blood cancers are apparently getting pretty good; there are some involving genetically engineered viruses and vaccines (a bunch repurposing the smallpox vaccine, iirc) that work really really well.

Good luck, and hopefully the attention finally being paid to viral afteraffects and links to autoimmune nastiness means more and better treatments being developed soon.

I just hate that it is Thanksgiving and I'm alone and sick. Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays, it has always been a big family thing for us. But this year I'm alone and don't get to enjoy it because I feel miserable.

I'm sorry, that sucks :(

(cozy werewolf anon)

Big Hugs, Philstar. I'm sorry. I hope you feel better soon and get to see your family even if it is after thanksgiving.

Hugs if you want them. :(

I'm sorry. it sucks, I know.

LEGIT this is just a silly vent because I'm hiding from *waves hands at everything* through distraction, but

okay, so I'm watching forensic files and so in this ep, all they got is two hands that were found in the trash. and they located who they belonged to.

and the narrator goes: "Investigators had no idea what had happened to the rest of the body. But they suspected something terrible happened inside his home."

NO, REALLY????? IDEK. I love it, it's so over-dramatic and obvious?

lmao

I don't know, dude, sometimes things that seem suspicious or creepy just turn out to be a somewhat weird, but innocuous series of events. I don't remember where it was, but they kept getting feet in shoes washing up on a shore, so obviously they had a serial killer lopping off feet and throwing them in the ocean, except it happened for quite awhile. The actual theory is, that when someone drowns, at some point because of animal predation or water breaking down the skin and tendons and all that the feet, protected longer by the shoes, come detached at some point and float to the surface because of the shoe materials and get caught up in currents that take them to shore.

LOL, yeah, I love those moments in these kinds of shows. I remember watching an episode of a show once about a woman who'd been stabbed to death, and we got these amazing insights from a couple of the investigators being interviewed:

"I believed whoever had stabbed her was very angry." and "She died in a way nobody wants to die."

No shit, ya think?

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I slept through perfectly fine day hours because I'm just generally mentally exhausted, so now I have to work during the night.

I'm losing hope here. I feel unemployable. I'm unprovable disabled due to migraines and w/o insurance I can't prove it. So, I need something flexible I won't get fired if I have to lay down for 3 days straight. (Yes, it happens, up to 5 depending on how bad it gets to my heart.) Every "flexible" job I look at requires a BA I don't have. Or is a scam. Or exploitative. And now -gestures at stuff- is making employers super picky.

So, my only thing I can think to do is such a big shot in the dark, involves creating a huge art project inspired by a celebrity and ating that celeb. He's a real sweetheart, actually lives in my state part of the time. I know he'd be pleased if he saw it (if my work ends up any good.) I'm just so scared if I do all this work and get nothing again, it'd just be devastating.

Being creative sucks. I just want a job I feel I can do around my migraines. I can do art and write and edit books around my migraines. I can't do shift work or answer phones or keep books. And my socials never got big enough for freelance stuff.

It's the end of the month so... yeah. Anxiety again.

(this is cozy werewolf anon)

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I'm so tired of being blamed for everything because I fucked up my life, because they think my face is unattractive, because I won't keep my mouth shut, because I defend myself, because they think I have no value. It's killing me weekly. I just want to lay down & die; I keep hoping to die in my sleep but I keep waking up the next morning...I need money and I need to go to college and I need a super strong emotional support system but I won't be doing/getting any of those any time soon.

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Yes I'm grateful that I have covid-related job security, but I also feel guilty that my company profits from it, and I'm overworked and dead tired. We need a second technician to manufacture all those tests but they won't hire temp help and I'm still alone and I can't do it.

EIGHTY FUCKING DOLLARS FOR SHIPPING FUCK MY LIFE
ITS NOT EVEN ANYTHING BULKY
WHY IS SHIPPING TO AUSTRALIA ALWAYS SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE

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