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⌈ Secret Post #5124 ⌋

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05. [SPOILERS for Lobotomy Corporation, Cat in the Box]



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06. [SPOILERS for The Red Turtle]



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Re: Random thoughts

[(Anonymous)]

CW: Sexual content
So I've been working on really actually loving myself and one exercise suggested to explore my own sexual side was to take selfies as if I'm trying to turn someone on. It made me realize I'd never actually considered what exactly "sexy" means when it comes to the face. Easy to wear lacy bras and show off my cleavage but I've never had anyone I wanted to give the "come hither/my eyes are telling you I want to fuck" look. I was unable to capture a worthy shot (though I did save a couple pictures I liked) but it was so much fun to look at myself using Snapchat filters (makes it so easy to look like I have makeup on!) and noticing what makes me feel sexy. I also took time to think about things that turned me on and used them as inspiration to try to convey sexy eye contact. What worked most times was thinking of celebrity/fandom crushes. I won't go into gritty details as to why it works for me, TL; DR version is I feel safe focusing on just my desires and that includes people in my fantasies who aren't anywhere near my IRL bubble. Real people intimacy is a little too much for my anxiety right now.
Now I'm wondering if other people went through a similar predicament? Except I'm sure theirs isn't as lame as mine. LOL But that's fine. Everyone has their own journey.

Also, all these years of watching America's Next Top Model has helped me tremendously!

Love yourselves everybody! You are worthy of love and in the wise words of Rupaul, "If you don't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?"

Re: Random thoughts

[(Anonymous)]

That's wonderful, anon! I'm glad you've found something that works for you.

I went through something sorta similar, but it was more about feeling pretty than sexy and it's a lot more boring. I wore really boring clothes for years because I thought I couldn't wear prettier things. Then I realized I was getting older and I didn't want to go the rest of my life wearing ugly things, so I bought myself a bunch of pretty dresses and shoes. It's weird, but I sort of have to give myself permission to wear pretty things and those things made me feel pretty and that gave me the confidence to go out while dressed up.

Re: Random thoughts

[(Anonymous)]

AYRT
During my late teen years I allowed myself to play dressup even if I had nowhere fancy to go. I'd walk around the house in 3 inch heels and a pretty dress and wear red lipstick. I always felt like my girlier side was never allowed to really flourish the way younger me really had wanted to due to a lot of reasons (tough childhood with cultural identity issues). It's still a learning process for me.

Giving yourself permission to wear pretty things is such a good way to describe the feeling. I hope you are in a good place with feeling pretty and allowing yourself to get dressed up.

Re: Random thoughts

[(Anonymous)]

Perfect quote!

You and the anon above me -- I relate pretty well. I recently started taking selfies in days I feel I look good, and in ways I think I look good (shout out to ANTM!!!) just because I want the proof that hey -- I did look good that one time. And much like nonnie above me, there is still this thing where I feel like I'm waiting on someone's permission to be ALL of myself -- however fabulous (or not) that is!

I often say to myself how much more attractive I'd be as a man and how much more freedom I'd give myself, and how much more confident I'd be if I was a man. And it's like...but you're not, nonnie. What's stopping you from being this person now? If that's who you'd be anyway, and this person is inside you anyhow? Why the fear to be *truly ALL* of yourself all the time? To look good (and not feel like there has to be a reason). It's okay to look like a stunner because you ARE. I don't know. I keep myself on a short leash and I want to be free. And it goes beyond looking nice or what have you. It's also allowing myself to have certain experiences, to go outside and join the parade instead of watching from the window. So. Perfect quote from Ru Paul.

And I will include a throwback to a Hilary Duff song "Why are you dressed in yellow/when you want to dress in gold?"

Corny, but a good question!

Re: Random thoughts

[(Anonymous)]

AYRT
YAS NONNIE!!! Take those selfies and be proud of how good you look in your pics! I'm glad that we're all learning to just do what we wish instead of waiting for some kind of permission before doing so. It's a hard habit to break out of because it took me a long time to realize that I have a lot more control of my life than I others had led me to believe.

I've always struggled to express myself fully as well. I also have been putting myself on a short leash, and as time goes on I realize whose life am I living for when I keep stopping myself from just doing what I want to do? It's scary to know so much of your life is a risk you have to take on yourself, but at the same time it's AMAZING that you have desires and aspirations for yourself.

So long as you keep existing, I hope you live for yourself and know we all go at our own paces on our paths to loving ourselves. You're doing a great job so I hope you are giving yourself some kudos for recognizing that you deserve to live your life to its' fullest.

I have to keep telling myself I need to give things a *TRY* before dismissing it, because I'm tired of wondering, "What if I had taken a chance that one time instead of not doing it?" A lot of times, I've realized, they don't turn out like I thought (both in the best and worst case scenarios; they tend to be a lot less lackluster than I thought they'd be), but it's OK because at least I did it!

And I will include a throwback to a Hilary Duff song "Why are you dressed in yellow/when you want to dress in gold?"
It's true though. We deserve to shine brighter and give ourselves the best in the world.