[ SECRET POST #5355 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #5355 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


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03. https://i.imgur.com/Wgi9JyJ.jpg
[linked for illustrated/implied child nudity? nonsexual/nothing shows, just in case]



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[Lucifer Within Us]


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06. [WARNING for discussion of sexual abuse]

















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Comments

moping

[(Anonymous)]

i have this friend who is incredibly dear to my heart, but honestly it feels like for the past year or so that i have been fooling myself as to how close we really are. maybe it's because she noticed i have a crush on her (that i have not and have no intention to act on), maybe it's because she's in a relationship and doesn't need me anymore. she's changed jobs so she doesn't have time to chat anymore like she used to (i think), it's all understandable... which makes it so difficult to parse whether it's our friendship or circumstances.
and i keep getting into these situations where i'll try to support her and do shit for her because i know her life is hard and i want to ease the burden on her in any way i can since i can't see her irl, but then it will turn out it wasn't needed or she's lost interest and she'll just drop it without saying anything and i'm left with all this effort i worked up for nothing.
but she's not asking for it, so blaming her for it wouldn't be fair.
and i know that if i really needed her she'd be there for me, but i really crave just casual interactions outside of our friend circle and they just happen... so sporadically. she used to tell me how much we're on the same wavelength but i really don't think that's the case anymore
but it's hard to tell with how little we hang out

meh

Re: moping

[(Anonymous)]

It sounds like you'd benefit from channeling that energy and effort elsewhere, nonny. I hope you do, for your own sake.

Re: moping

[(Anonymous)]

thank you. i'm trying to convince myself that just because i'm unemployed doesn't mean my time and energy isn't valuable... but it's really hard to get out of the mindset. i wish i knew how to address it too but i don't think there would be much point to it. she doesn't have time, she's depressed, she's always had a habit of forgetting to reply to messages... in my head i would just make her feel bad for things she already hates. maybe it would be completely different from how i imagine it, but i just can't find the courage or the words to bring it up.
maybe it's cowardice but i do think me developing a healthy mindset instead would be the best for both of us

Re: moping

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not sure it needs to be addressed by talking to her, though. There's really no good or satisfying conclusion to telling someone that you invested time and energy into them even though they didn't ask you to, and now you feel unappreciated by the person you did all that stuff for, unasked. That's more of a you-problem, and all you can and should do is to stop pouring effort into this one-sided relationship. I think your crush is influencing you to keep acting this way, perhaps in an unconscious hope that it'll be requited.

There's a saying: do not set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm. Spend that energy on self-care, and maybe pursuing relationships with people who are just as into being friends (or more) with you as you are with them.

Re: moping

[(Anonymous)]

you're probably right, especially with the crush thing. thanks again, think i needed to hear this