[ SECRET POST #5484 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #5484 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


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[fscom]

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Transcript by OP

[fscom]

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Re: Transcript by OP

[fscom]

I was questioning whether or not to post this somewhere, so decided to make it a secret. It's a little bit long.

When I was 15-17 I was a small artist in X fandom, I always got 200 notes at absolute max, but was slowly integrating into the circle of artists of the time.

One really weird day one of the BNF artists send me a Tumblr chat with “Are you a bot?”, I made a, admittedly cringy, joke about it but said “no, why do you ask?”.

“Because you never comment anything in my art you reblog.” I got confused by it, why did it matter? they had 1000+ other followers engaging with them, but got flustered and tried to explain myself “English is my second language and I’m very shy, I never know what to say.”

“Well, English is my second language too.” ok??? “Honestly, I feel pity for people like you.” what.

Now, this sounds very funny, nowadays I laugh about it, but I was an anxious and depressed 15 teen talking with a BNF everyone adored. my anxiety was already starting to flare up, I ran from my room to drink some water, my mom even asked if I was ok, all of this was stupid so I said it was fine.

I got back to my computer a minute later. They had said some other things I don’t remember, then when they had noticed my silence (went to drink water) they tried to fake apologize by trauma dumping on me. I just wanted it to be okay, so I tried to relate to them by bringing up I understood trauma (my own) and that it was fine. They didn’t reply.

I got so, but so anxious at the time I couldn’t sleep and got the courage to check their blog, they had posted about how people who always draw characters uncomfortable are fishy, I did that, it was a good way to express my own anxieties and reality at the time, the other BNF liked the post.

At the time it sucked, the worst week I ever had, when they showed up in my dash I cowered, it was so SO dumb. Nowadays I genuinely laugh at this and can’t help but get a superiority high from this story because at least I never pulled this shit with anyone, “I pity people like you.” I think I lost a great opportunity to have a Disney tier villain in my life lol. I do wish I had been more pissed at the time, I was too submissive. Oh well, I can only hope you’re a better person now you goddamn asshole.

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, fuck that person. I don't know who says shit like "I feel pity for people like you" because you... reblog in a manner in which they do not approve? They sound very immature.

[tabaqui]

You were, as you say, 'anxious and depressed' and a kid, being attacked out of the blue. That's not 'submissive', that's being bullied by an asshat.

I'm sorry you had to go through that, and I'm glad you can look back on it with amusement now, but don't be so hard on your wee self, OP.

[(Anonymous)]

+1

[(Anonymous)]

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[(Anonymous)]

I know we probably don't have anyone young enough here, but if there's anyone now that is around this age (or older and doesn't know how to react in this situation), this is a very good thing to react to by just ignoring.

If they're this petty, I'd also suggest muting. And maybe blocking if you think they're subtweeting/whatever the tumblr version is. It doesn't matter if they are or not, just if it's affecting you.

[(Anonymous)]

Wow. If someone approached me that way I'd reply "sorry, I'll stop reblogging your art at all" and then ignore them.

(Not saying you did anything wrong for reacting the way you did OP, I totally get how that would hurt and I'm sorry! I'm just baffled by the entitlement.)

[(Anonymous)]

Same. I'd be like, "Sorry my lack of comments make you uncomfortable. I'll just stop reblogging your posts. That should solve the problem." And then I'd probably just straight-up block them.

[fizzyrose]

Wow, what a huge asshole. Who just says something like that to someone?

[(Anonymous)]

Yikes, that person sounds awful.

I had someone get mad at me in a private message on tumblr for just liking a handful of their works instead of reblogging it all - so in a panic I unliked them and blocked the artist lol. At least I didn't have to hear more about them after that.

[(Anonymous)]

wow, what a jerk! they come to you seeking butt-pats for their art and then try to use your own trauma experiences against you? now that's a person who deserves to be pitied.

OP

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks for all the sympathetic replies! Also yeah, maybe I'm being too harsh on young tiny me, I do am glad that it probably helped me stand up for myself nowadays. I didn't make the secret looking for validation, but it still feels good to be validated, so thanks!