I sat across from you TWO DAYS A WEEK ALL SEMESTER, you put Hetalia in your essay, ffs I SAW YOU ON RPSECRETS. WHY DID I NEVER GET UP THE GUTS TO ASK YOU WHAT YOUR LJ NAME WAS
oh right bc i'm a big coward who thinks you hate me.
I sort of understand racefail, and I think the principles of researching your characters/accepting criticism are very good ones. But I just can't get worked up about them, and sometimes I feel like I should. And then I remember that there are people in real life that have it so much harder than some writer who hasn't got much better to do than have online arguments. Racism is bad, I know, but I'm frankly more concerned about the people who are starving/living in destitution/being physically abused etc (if you really need examples, look at some charities).
It makes me so angry that people who live relatively good lives whine about their representation in writing, but I'm guessing are probably quite apathetic to those in need.
I'm tired of my friends referring to me as a "BNF", which was a joke at first, but now a serious and unwanted label. And I can't understand why anyone would WANT to be one. The so-called popularity isn't worth it.
I get people who are AFRAID TO TALK TO ME because of it, stereotyped before I can do or say a thing to defend myself, labeled as boring because of my choice of ship and the love I spread for it, and this is all by people who don't know a damn thing about me.
Sure, I'm happy that some people like my work and what I have to give to the fandom. But it's near-impossible to make actual friends because of this 'status' that's been imposed upon me. I can't stand it.
Srsly. Can't someone just openly love on a fandom and not get special treatment or contempt for doing so? Because I DO love my fandom and I don't want to stop sharing the love for it - it inspires me, and I wish for nothing more than for others to get out of lurking and show their love, too. There's plenty you can do, guys! :(
Re: All you "I wanna be a BNF" people out there...
Does it make anyone else cringe when you see your flisters @reply to celebs on Twitter as if they're bffs? TRYING TO BE CUTE WITH MISHA COLLINS IS NOT GOING TO MAKE HIM LOVE YOU FFS.
It makes me want to kick a puppy when I see that. I admit I'll reply to a celeb here and there, but it's never anything cutesy, but I have ppl who are all, "OMG ILU LETS GO OUT SOMETIME"
I FUCKING HATE THE FUCKING BSTARG FINALE!!!!!!!!!!! WHO THE FUCK KILLS ROSLIN AND THRACE??????? MOORE BETTER FUCKING APOLOGIZE!!!!!!! ANYONE WHO SAYS ITS GOOD GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!!!!!
Oh god me too. It makes me feel like a Bad Fan, and in meta chat on comms I always try to use the names they more generally use instead. (Nicknames, not surnames, so we're clearly not in the same fandom, anon).
But inside, I still call them by their first names.
I'm embarrassed for myself over something so fucking petty.
I feel really uncomfortable when I post in HMDs and concrit memes and all I get is praise. This is the only character I've ever RPed, in the only game I've ever played in. What is up that I'm doin it rite the first time without stupid newbie syndrome?
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