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fandomsecrets2023-03-16 06:53 pm
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[ SECRET POST #5914 ]
⌈ Secret Post #5914 ⌋
Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.
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Notes:
Secrets Left to Post: 01 pages, 11 secrets from Secret Submission Post #846.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 - too big (and unfortunately unreadable downscaled) ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.
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Transcript by OP
You know how important you have been to me, since I was a kid in middle school. Especially during high school. As time went on though, my relationship with you has changed. You became a place that I would escape to instead of dealing with my issues. A place where I would ignore real life in exchange for a fantasy. I found myself in as many dark spaces as fun spaces with you. I found myself reading things that began to mess with my mind. Reading things that were taking over my time. You weren't taking me anyplace good anymore, and while we've always had fun, who's to say you were never leading me down a dark road to begin with? After all, you were to me what drugs are for many. It started as a good time, I didn't even realize I was reading fic when we started; you were free, you were there, you had all the things and people I loved, all I had to do was look. And there you'd be. And I loved you. There are still so many stories I wish I could have finished reading or writing. Stories I wish I had saved a copy of somewhere, many bookmarks that are still half read, Wisps waiting for updates, saved on my devices.
But I am stepping away from you because this is no longer healthy for me. It hasn't been for a long while. Thanks for all the good times we've had; there's been many and you've been formative force in my life. I don't quite know how I'll do fandom without you, but I guess I'll figure it out.
I don't know if I'll ever come back to you, even if it's just a visit. Maybe one day, when I'm doing better. Maybe not ever again. I still talk about you as if I'm still reading and writing fic, but I'm not. And maybe that's how you'll stay, a memory, and with enough distance, it will be a rosy colored one too. I lived so much through you, so many lives. It's time I go out and actually live my own story. It's the only one I've got, after all.
With much love,
I'm logging out
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(Anonymous) 2023-03-17 01:11 am (UTC)(link)Thank you, tabaqui <3
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(Anonymous) 2023-03-17 06:51 am (UTC)(link)Hope things go well for you, OP.
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(Anonymous) 2023-03-17 07:33 am (UTC)(link)Whatever happens for you, I wish you the best on your next life chapter!
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(Anonymous) 2023-03-17 01:13 am (UTC)(link)TL;DR:
Fanfiction used to be fun, became an unhealthy outlet for me affecting my life. Can no longer stay here, ciao fanfiction, we had some good times but this ain't it anymore.
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I hope you find a new outlet that makes you feel good.
Thank you secret maker
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