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⌈ Secret Post #6397 ⌋

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Venting thread

[nanslice]

for all your venting needs

Re: Venting thread

[nanslice]

So I went over some railroad tracks at just the perfect angle that they tore up the undercarriage of my car (I was not speeding, they're just exceptionally shitty and I have a short car). I don't have my phone on me so I leave the car unlocked and the key in the driver side door pocket, my partner and I get back home, I contact my insurance for roadside assistance, tell them where the car and the key in the car is, and then go about my day at home.

Then...nothing. I get a lot of phone calls from telemarketers and shit so I don't answer any calls but I definitely check for voice messages. Nothing. A couple hours pass so I reach out to the lil online agent and she told me that it's about to be towed. So I'm like cool!

I still hear nothing. So I check my missed calls and see one name that comes up a couple up times. Just a name! So I chance it and call. He answers with, "You still want a tow? You never picked up! Pep Boys is closed and are out two weeks, you're gonna need to find a different place!" And I was like...so you're not there and the car is where I left it? Okay, I'm still gonna need a tow. And then he goes "so that little car was yours, huh?" Like yes bitch, you have the make, model, color, and license plate, how tf did you not know that was the car??? I tell him to bring it to my house. He was like I can put it in storage while you find somewhere to take it" and I was like no, just bring it to my house.

Then I talk to the lil online agent who's clearly full of shit and try to get some answers from her, she just tells me the new ETA time and ends the chat.

So yeah. YEAH. A terrible afternoon! Lesson learned, answer the phone!

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

Oof that sucks! I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I learned my own painful lesson to answer the phone when something out of the routine is going on. I look forward to the day that everyone moves to texting so I don’t have to answer a dozen calls about my non existent loan application before I get the one phone call I’m waiting on.

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

A guy at work asked me out and I said not in a million years bc he goes with prostitutes (has admitted this out loud in mixed company 🙃) and hasn't had a full panel STI, EVER. And he's mad that I think he's a filthy fucking pig. Christ.

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

Oh no! I'm so sorry. He's never been checked out? That is a real turn off!

Re: Venting thread

[greghousesgf]

ew

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

Fat guy anon here. He has somebody.
Don't mind me, I'm just kicking my own ass all the way back from 1991. :(
Oh, and I also accidentally liked one of his comments today and had to rapidly unlike it, hahaha. Going to get caught snooping!

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

anon, you gotta move on and stop doing this to yourself.

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

ahhhhhh i was waiting for a comment like this! thanks, snotty anon. ;)

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

Based on what you've said about him in previous threads, he sounds toxic. IMO you're better off dodging this red flag!

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

He may have been a tad toxic back then.
IDK why people are getting so bothered about it here. He kicked me to the curb thirty years ago. We were never involved, though he really wanted to be. Pretty sure he has a SO and is probably very different now. I'm not a homewrecker and haven't contacted him so there's no need to be extremely concerned. Breaking up people isn't my goal or occupation in life!

Re: Venting thread

[philstar22]

Just frustrated with myself. Been letting things get to me and really stressed lately. I can feel it in my body. And now my shoulders and neck are so tense I think I have a pinched nerve. And I've been using bad coping strategies rather than good ones (things involving spending money), and now I have another stress to add.

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[(Anonymous)]

I'm going on vacation tomorrow. It's an annual vacation with my family and it's the sole high point of my year. Sounds exciting, right? Well...the "with my family" part is the catch. My mom is...crotchety. She gets better once we're at the beach, but tomorrow is going to be all plane travel and dinner with grandparents and she's going to be really stressed out, which will make me and my dad really stressed out. I have to go through hell before I can get to heaven. And I'm not even going to try to sleep because I know I won't be able to and then I'll be pissed about it and everything will be just that little bit worse.

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[(Anonymous)]

Coming next Tuesday it's been four weeks since my interview and I haven't heard a damn thing.

I wouldn't mind waiting if they just said 'hey you got the job we're just working out some kinks and will get back to you'. But four fucking weeks to utter even a word outside of my boss' boss' possible insinuation that I should've gotten a call by now?

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[(Anonymous)]

Oh crap, I remember your earlier comment. Four weeks is crazy long to wait, I'm so sorry and I hope you hear back with good news soon.

Re: Venting thread

[(Anonymous)]

Trying to find new friends sucks. Trying to connect with new people is a sucky process, mostly because I'm pretty sure I'm the barrier to that. Overcoming trauma is a bitch. Was thinking of one of those twelve-step groups but the one I'm thinking of only seems to have zoom calls only, except for the in-person ones that are nowhere near my city.

I told myself I would join new groups and connect and be authentic this year. So far all I've managed to do is detach from some unhealthy groups, half-assedly contribute to the somewhat healthy groups I'm still part of, and half-assedly approach a new group I haven't interacted with much. And I keep doing like anon in the other thread and doomscrolling news, which kills my motivation to connect. Ironically, if I focused harder on joining groups and connection, I wouldn't have time to doom scroll, heh.

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[(Anonymous)]

I am so tired. I turn down job offers because they are not exactly good (not a good pay, annoying commute, boring job). I can deal with one or two of this but not more caveats especially we all know that there would be more that I don't know of.
And of course I don't get jobs I actually want. And it's not like I aim for something super great and outside my range. No. But apparently I am not good still

Re: Venting thread - lots of tws also wall o text sorry

[(Anonymous)]

Normally this time of year I'd be excited for San Diego Comic Con and frantically trying to finish or update a costume, but ever since the news broke about Neil Gaiman, it's buried my fanishness under a mountain of "ugh, ew."

Especially after Ursula Vernon went off first denying and then minimizing the horror of what he'd done, and then deleting a bunch of her responses. Diane Duane backing her up didn't help. I looked up to Vernon the way a lot of Gaiman's fans did him, and had since Vernon was barely out of her teens and I was barely into mine.

Dammit Gaiman, why didn't you stick to CNC BDSM, you asshole? But seriously neither sex nor BDSM is my thing, but you can't convince me he wouldn't have been inundated with fans who'd jump at the chance to willingly do ass to mouth and beatings and emeto and all the stuff he apparently only wanted with victims who were terrified of him because their terror and revulsion and powerlessness to stop him is what got him off.

I got back into Sandman fandom when the show came out, and now I'm horrified the author of the comics I loved (who was good friends with my favorite author ever) is a rapist, and sad that one of my current favorite authors (who fucking wrote a book about a bunch of powerless women banding together to stop an abusive rapist!) spent a couple days defending him, and is now pretending she didn't.

The fandom is fracturing along multiple lines, from "Gaiman is innocent and those women are fake and/or lying bitches and this is all a TERF smear campaign," to "I am deleting all my fic and if you still enjoy it you are a monster, and if you still enjoy the source material you are as bad a monster as Gaiman," and I'd like to stay in the fandom so long as Gaiman never makes even a penny off me ever again, but between the infighting and the people leaving and deleting their work, idk how much of the fandom will be left.

And in non fandom-explosion news, I have a pap smear scheduled for tomorrow, but I'm on my period so I'll probably have to reschedule. I need to schedule a mammogram and see if I qualify for one of those all-over skin cancer checks, too, but I don't want a metal alligator scraping my cervix, to squash my boobs in a radioactive industrial press, or to lay naked on a freezing exam table while a dermatologist peers at my moles.

Fuck, I don't want to go to the doctor at all. I'm fat, female, and over 40, so it doesn't matter that I walk 7+ miles a day every day and haven't eaten meat in 30 years or smoked or drank ever, I will be told I need to lose weight, and my concerns will be dismissed until I do (and if I ever do, it'll be because I'm really sick with something, since I don't live on junk, but I do like to eat and eat a lot.)

And I'm not doing the laundry I need to, or any of the other productive things I should do, I'm venting online instead. Ugh. This sucks.

Re: Venting thread - lots of tws also wall o text sorry

[(Anonymous)]

The whole thing with Gaiman just sucks. I am not looking into it before dust settles down. I want to believe him because I enjoy his work and rape shouldn't happen to anyone even to awful people. Buuuut right now things are bleak.

Also I feel you so much with a doctor. I need to go to one. But I am also over 40, fat and female. Good fucking luck. Also my diet isn't the best because I battle with depression and healthy cooking while being unemployed, hustling to stay afloat and being either too depressed or too anxious to properly function isn't working good for a healthy meal plan.

TW: genocide, just uh dark in general

[(Anonymous)]

I hate the person I've become. I remember being a child and learning about the Holocaust, and being haunted by what I saw at the Holocaust Museum my class went to. Even though it was long before I was born, I cried over the fact that it had ever happened.

Now I have thoughts that the loud protests against Israel's genocide are going to be the reason I die within the next few years. They won't vote for Biden and Trump will win, and I will die under his rule. I have thoughts like I hate them more than I hate Trump himself. They want to die and they want me to die with them because there is a genocide going on and nobody deserves to live. But I want to live so badly that I'll vote for someone who is supporting genocide now, and hate those who withhold their votes in protest. I'll hate those not in my country who want to see Biden lose because he's aiding a genocide. Only when I know my life is safe will I be able to care about a genocide on the other side of the world.

I'm not a good person, and never have been. I only cried over the Holocaust because I was a child living in another time. If I die, I'll deserve it.

But I still don't want to.

Re: TW: genocide, just uh dark in general

[(Anonymous)]

get help. Your logic is very very faulty. Or go to Canada if you're worried that much.

Biden will lose because he doesn't care that he's senile. 'I did the best I could' he said after the debates. And don't forget that Trump started 0 wars. Trump didn't give Taliban US's weapons and machinery, that was Biden. Both candidats suck but let's not pretend that Biden did anything good.

Re: TW: genocide, just uh dark in general

[(Anonymous)]

You have to put on your oxygen mask before helping others. You can't do shit about a genocide somewhere else if you're dead in another.

Re: TW: genocide, just uh dark in general

[(Anonymous)]

It's normal to put yourself first. It just means you're human. Don't beat yourself up about it.

Re: TW: genocide, just uh dark in general

[(Anonymous)]

The only bad ones here are the ones who made a world where having morals is a goddamn luxury.

You are painfully aware that when it comes to survival, dealing with real threats (and not simply imagined/perceived) has little to nothing to do with morals.

Many of us are stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Fuck anyone who puts others in these positions.

You still recognize the lesser of two evils. I think you should give yourself more credit.

Re: TW: genocide, just uh dark in general

[(Anonymous)]

Just the fact that you said Israel is committing genocide is reason enough to ignore you.