[ SECRET POST #6461 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #6461 ⌋

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ayrt

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks. I guess its just my brain being like "grass is greener" but to the opposite extreme of what i had.

As a teen i was both super emotionally in immature and also neurotically religious OCD about stuff to the point I practically believed in going to hell for thoughtcrime. so. Idk. Maybe my brain is idealizing an extreme version of...an absence of that?

Like idealizing the excessive absence of that constant fear/guilt complex around sex?

Re: ayrt

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ayrt

That makes sense, I mean in a lot of my fantasies I like to imagine I'm inexperienced or a teen again and "redoing" sexual awakening in a different way where I get to pick the story, sometimes as a sweet and romantic story, often as a dark cathartic story, because my real experience was not so good, so I get where you're coming from. It's totally normal to fantasize about the kind of thing you described. Thinking through fantasies where things were different can help you understand your feelings about what happened and be a safe way to let out feelings that you hid in the past.

Re: ayrt

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yeah cuz like for me imagining/fantasizing about being openly sexual is a way to kinda.. work through my feelings about being so repressed back then. It almost feels like in fantasy I'm reclaiming my sexuality in a way while doing it in real life would be... kinda risky. yanno?

Fantasy is a good psychological tool sometimes in dealing with mental trauma and stuff. Which is why the whole anti mentality I see lately trying to attack and shame fantasizing is so threatening to me that I try to fight it even though sometimes their words fill me with doubt sometimes